Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind.
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Monday, August 31, 2009 please dont go yet. i beg you. just 3 more months if i may. please. 1 week down, 15 to go Sunday, August 30, 2009 title makes it seem as though im sick of school already but im really not. as much as i feel drained and tired from all the walking, i really love college life. there's just so much to do and explore that i can barely keep up especially with the commuting ordeal. this week has been good so far. the classes arent that hard to find as i thought they might be but there seriously is a ton of walking to do. especially with the insanely hot weather this week (it seemed like summer just started) it was a torture to walk around school. so from bart to the valley life sciences building, its not too bad plus its the start of the day too so im not that dead as i would be at the end of the day. usually take me about 7 mins? but if i have to walk to dwinelle, its a lot farther. and its uphill too. so if i have a back to back class after at dwinelle, i have to powerwalk since we have a ten minute grace period but since theres hundreds of people in the lecture, getting a good seat requires one to fly there. i know for sure im going to get enough exercise from all that walking. hopefully it'll be better when the weathers cooler. i seriously doubt i could live in singapore comfortably again =/ aside from the torture from the walking, the campus cant be any better. theres always something going on especially at sproul. throngs of people. sometimes i dont even notice that im in school. its quite insane really but i guess i'll get used to it. food in or around school is great so far. i had coupons for tapioca express where its free drink with any purchase so we headed there after class and took away to eat at this patch of grass outside VLSB. its almost like a picnic or a park. people just sit on patches of grass wherever eating or studying. who needs tables and chairs? grass works just as well. went to the golden bear cafe too. not quite as cheap but i guess its still worth it considering the portion. friday was excruciatingly hot so we went to get smoothies. it was 4.25 each but the size was huge. its larger than starbucks largest size ( i forgot whats it called since i dont usually order that) i still have yet to find jamba juice sadly. i know its near the residential area but i was too lazy to walk over. on fridays though, its blue and gold discount day so we basically get discounts at certain merchants if we have any cal gear on. so awesome. i need to get my sweatshirt soon before fall arrives. theres just so much clothing to choose from though i can hardly make up my mind on which design to get. just sent in my appliation for URAP (undergraduate research apprentice program). wasnt initially planning to send in an application but when i was looking through the different research topics that professors were conducting, i came across one from the office of undergraduate veterinary research and its description was exactly my dream career. perfect. so i had to try my luck and signed up for it. now hopefully i get accepted and get all the experience that i need. not really getting my hopes up though since i wasnt really prepared in commiting to it. in the description it mentioned that i have to commit 7-10 hours per week so im wondering how i could manage that especially in my first semester. well, i ll see how it goes. gonna be exciting. i 'll know after sept 3rd :) alright, i should go read my biochemistry. thats gonna be my hardest class i know. 500 people in a lecture??!! how can i ever find something personal to attach to. office hours dont work either since i have classes then. oh my endocrinology professor is awesome. he's hilarious. think i'll find his class most interesting and enjoyable. the GSI for my section is kinda cute too. *laughs* dream on. i have a song on repeat for the last hour now. sweet goodbyes by krezip. and i need more songs for my ipod! 2 hours worth of songs is what i listen to per day and im starting to get sick of them. CALTOPIA Wednesday, August 26, 2009 went down to berkeley yesterday to explore the school, find my classroom though i sorta failed. my first lesson is in 2062 valley life sciences building. found the building but i only saw 2063. i cant really say follow the crowd too so i think im going to get lost tomorrow. tried to find my bearings but that obviously didnt work. i walked round and round and somehow ended up farther away than where i wanted to be. i even ended up outside of campus even though it still feels like you're on campus especially around telegraph and shattuck. the cafes and shops were filled with cal people. its really like a university town. of course with bums around too =/ went to caltopia next at the recreational sports facility which i took forever to find. it was almost like a fair. wait, it is a fair. loads of people, ridiculously long lines but loads of fun cos there was tons of free stuff. i still have my singaporean touch - kiasu-ism. haha. the line was so long, you queue and ended up passing by 3 booths. so it was almost like killing 3 birds with one stone. cool stuff. its the usual spin the wheel and get prize kinda thing. so i lugged home lots of stationaries. other booths were promoting drinks. i ended up having to drag 3 bottles home. lol. quickly s was there too so yay free bubble tea. sf soup company. yum clam chowder. i have to say berkeley is really like a mall. u get all your fav restaurants and cafes along the streets. they were handing lots of coupons too. free coffee, 50% off soup. buy one get one kind of deals. so im pretty sure i ll put those to good use. should have gotten more. muahaha. left caltopia and headed to memorial glade. convocation was 3-4.15 and it was ice cream social so we went there at 4.30ish and they were still giving out ice cream. so we just sat down at the glade watching people play frisbee and seeing this tiny dog run around. i typed away at first. lol. decided to go at 5. caught the 5.10bart and got picked up. it was a fruitful day i have to say though my legs were killing me from all that walking. got home and went out for dinner since joyce came back from the north pole. i wanna go there. not quite what i expected from her pictures but i guess it would be better in the winter. colder of course but more pretty with the snow and all. it'd be 24 hours darkness too. something nice to experience. they experienced 24 hours sun. haha. tried out a new sushi place. not bad. huge portions so it was worth it. pricier than other places but worth it. got home and checked my mail. i am officially going to sacnas in october. here i come again texas. that also means i have my first publication. yay! who ever thought that i would have something published? thats a good start at least. i think im google-able too :S have to read and re read and re re read my poster before it gets printed cos thats what i'll be presenting. oh click here to see it. feedback please. http://www.smccd.edu/accounts/case/sacnas/lau/jlau.pdf it's so pretty. hopefully the printing keeps it decent. like what case said, it may look good on screen but sucks in print. especially when the colors all go haywire and stuff. comes out a different shade than you like or want it to be. alright, i shall go hunt for food now and maybe try to start on my readings for tomorrow just in case class actually starts. random pictures:  free icecream. no wonder our school fees are ridiculously expensive. haagen dazs?? we went back twice to get seconds. yum yum  doe library. i got lost in there. lol. no seriously i got lost. memorial glade. love the green grass. love the scenery. love the peace. people playing frisbee, dogs running wild. almost like a park really. campanile tower under repairs. other half of the library. somehow i went in the south door and ended up in the front of the library. simple facts in the free planner they gave us. gotta love the school. i cant be any happier. excited to go to school tomorrow. nervous too of course.to go or not to go Sunday, August 23, 2009 i'm still thinking if i should go to this other conference (ABRCMS) in november with regards to my research. its going to be in phoenix arizona so it'd be cool to go to another state. but the problem is, im going to have to miss another 3 days of school. sacnas which i know im going or pretty sure i am in october is already going to make me miss 3 days of school. i know im going to miss out so much especially since wed and thurs are my longest and busiest days. even though they're not back to back weeks, it still makes a significant difference. if i was at skyline, i wouldnt even hesistate since i know the professors there would readily make any exceptions and i know i wouldnt miss out that much or at least its easier to catch up with the workload. but at cal, i would risk missing out a midterm or assignment. they wouldnt care even if its a educational conference im going to or as a matter of fact, a conference where i'll present my own research. so i dont know. i have to let case know soon since the deadline is sept 11 to apply for a travel award. but school doesnt start til aug 26 and even then, i wouldnt be able to tell what the workload is going to be like to decide if it was okay to miss 3 days of school again. and hopefully they have the syllabus ready and then i'll know when my midterms will be. so if it clashes, i know i'll be giving up this opportunity to go. if i do have a final, i could bring my books over to study too but as with other trips, studying doesnt seem to really work with all the fun and crazy nights that usually occur. i dont know, hopefully everything will work out. i do want to go though. it'd be good on my resume or whatever when i apply to schools next time or even jobs. aside from that, holidays are coming to an end soon. havent been doing much at all. in fact, its been pretty boring. basically, i wake up and stare at the computer for the rest of day. or during lunch and dinner, watch teevee. its been this routine for the past 2 weeks? went out a couple of times and thats been fun. getting out of the house once in a while. watched district 9 on thurs. surprisingly liked it. didnt think id be interested in alien related stuff. but it was good. the ending kinda ruined it a lil but it was still good. watched short circuit and stand by me-old 80s movies yesterday. short circuit was adorable. now i see where the wall e argument came about. they do somehow look alike. but i have to say wall e is definitely way cuter. think im going to head off to berkeley on monday since theres some events going on. its welcome week so theres gonna be tons of people. i really do wished i stayed on campus though. i know im going to miss out on so much fun. most of the activities that im interested in are held in the evening so thats a bummer. i will move out next semester. or i wish i will move out. okay, im super bored now. nothing to do as usual. nothing to watch either. dum dum dum... i want to travel again. i miss my dog a lot. a lot. 12MB Sunday, August 16, 2009 boo. i spent last night doing my poster and finally sent it but this morning i woke up to an email that i couldnt even open that said it failed to send :/ and i looked at the size of the file-12MB. hahaha. of course it bounced back. its sad cos i spent forever trying to get everything to fit in the poster. resizing, grouping and ungrouping because of the figures making it so hard to move around. and when i finally got it to fit even though it still looks weird now, i was so excited to send it but ohwells. we just cant trust electrons-quoted by case in one of her emails. 12 more days of summer Saturday, August 15, 2009 here's just a snippet of what i've been doing in lab  1 out of about the 30 ish snails i killed. but he's the star since he got his picture taken. mantle(skin) from the snail. tested against E.coli. inhibition aint that obvious.... disk diffusion using blood and water as a control. somewhat a zone of inhibition. oh blood is the one on the right. blood took me forever to find, she even doodled on my printed out snail anatomy picture. i felt dumb after. but she tried before too and couldnt find it so *sticks out tongue*---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 12 days of summer before school starts again... im kinda excited but scared at the same time as i probably have mentioned a hundred times now throughout this entire summer. new school, new life, new friends, new courses. i still cant get over skyline somehow but i know i'll be going back there sometime soon this coming semester especially if my abstract goes through. which reminds me i need to get my poster done. im in the midst of procrastinating again. i have to say that case is incredible. she gets stuff done so quickly. i sent her my second draft of my text at about 4 and she replied at 7 with all these additional details and how she was going to help me fix my graphs and figures and all. and by 8 she had my text edited. i think procrastination isnt in her dictionary at all. and she edited another groups paper at 2-3am? she's such a workaholic its kinda scary. and she sent me another email at 7 in the morning. i wonder if she sleeps. school books arrived today. i should start reading ahead already because i know i will definitely fall behind sooner or later. the biochemistry book seems so boring inside. its just text after text after text with limited pictures that arent even pretty pictures. they're like molecules and all. i wonder how im gonna survive. and i heard it aint an easy class either so :s good luck to me. oh, bart is going on strike on monday. again. glad i dont have school that day but i really really need to find some sort of alternative especially when school starts. bart is just totally not reliable as far as i know now. plus, its crazy expensive. i'm spending about 180 a month on transport alone. and 40 hours a month on bart! :/ thats how much time im gonna be wasting. i cant read on bart cos i'll just get really nauseous and uncomfortable. i think i need 40 hours worth of songs in my ipod. so far i think i only have 25? alright, kinda ran out of things to type. should do my poster now. i already delayed it for a day. and she must be waiting for it. i know shes getting anxious too cos quite a few others have yet to start theirs and school's starting for skyline already. rants Thursday, August 13, 2009 yay the post i typed up just got deleted. autosave doesnt work :( :( Wednesday, August 12, 2009 stressing out! berkeley is giving me headaches. so much to worry about! STILL CANT BELIEVE I CANT PAY MY FEES BY CREDIT CARD! seriously? ridiculous or what? so i have to set up my savings account with the web and all. more admin stuff to do. gonna do deferred payment as well so paying bout 3500 a month. guess its not that bad except theyre charging 40 bucks for this system. DAYLIGHT ROBBERY I SAY! well, berkeley = big school name = more stress = :S hopefully it also equals good job and high salaries. just got my textbooks too. they cost a BOMB. one of my whole scholarship is gone. so glad for it. thanks dr case! today didnt make anything better either. more stuff to worry about. but i guess i wont mention it here just yet. oh, life's a roller coaster ride. guess i shall just go to bed, wake up tomorrow and conquer these problems one by one. if i can sleep with all these thoughts in my mind. okay, my back is seriously aching now from all these sitting down and stressing. screams and pulls hair like a lunatic. picture that! ps. firefox aint helping by closing on me every 5 mins! thanks a lot! to be or not to be Saturday, August 08, 2009 just what does it mean when someone you dont know that well until less than a month ago start messaging and calling you when they're bored or when he ask you if u want to have lunch even if you dont know what time you will be done with school or when you get tired and stressed from lab that he messages you telling you that everything's gonna work out and says that he was just wondering if you were hungry so he could bring food over instead since it was late and when you're done with lab, you call and he pops by in 15 minutes only to drive to a restaurant that is closed and what else does it mean when you take away 2 meals from in and out and eat it in the car in an elementary school parking lot while watching a movie because its too noisy in in and out and towards the end, he tells you your hair is nice and starts stroking it and perhaps either unknowingly or knowingly starts "stroking" your neck and then he sends you home and says bye that doesnt really sound quite so much like a bye that you usually say but again what does it mean when you know that he's going to be away in LA for at least the next 2 years while you stay in SFO or that you're selfish and know that it wouldnt last or dont want it to last because you're rejecting him due to several superficial factors yet at the same time is constantly waiting for his message or call? i'm highly confused... will the superficial always remain superficial while you remain hard headed about your wants and expectations? or will you slowly give in? -this is meant to be entirely rhetorical-
i promised Sunday, August 02, 2009 here's the random pictures i promised in no particular order. some are soo long ago.  swan in san francisco. i forgot what that place is called. :/ sorry for the ugly lighting. my watch is back in singapore for a strap adjustment. all i have is the box. this is the place that i forgot the name. orientation day. having lunch in memorial glade. pretty pretty. i believe that is the doe library. the biggest one. gotta love the school.  our very own fireworks on july 4th. we had 200 dollars worth of fireworks. neighbors were doing illegal ones-those that shoot up into the air. a whole box's worth. literally firing away money.  yum yum. i just finished this whole pack yesterday afternoon. pretty strong wasabi powder. love these after 4 packs, i got sick of it. my favorite deep french roast coffee. astronout ice cream. ( i think i posted this up previously. lol) ooohh french friesokay, thats it for my random pictures. it took too long. food cravings! just going to be a really random post with pictures. nothing much happening these days. a 4 day weekend isnt as exciting as its supposed to be. only went out on thursday night to watch harry potter again on imax 3D. was better. i guess it isnt all that bad. but i wont say its one of my favorites. i think if i watch it a couple more times, i would easily get sick of it. much too simple for a harry potter series. going out on tuesday with catherine and kaye. might go for japanese lunch and watch a movie after. im thinking funny people. we'll see. one more week of lab work to do but i dont know if i can finish on time. she suggested that i inject a snail with dead bacteria, care and feed it for a week and test to see if there's any chemical to attack it. so i dont know how i'm going to carry that out in time. hopefully it works otherwise im more or less done. get a better mantle plate and find and test for blood. can you imagine after killing 30 odd snails,i still see no signs of blood?! they have an open blood circulation so it should be pretty easy to find. once you cut them up, blood should be oozing out. and instead of hemoglobin, they have hemocyanin so its blueish green in color. but all i ever see is clear liquid and snort. i've already submitted my abstract so hopefully it gets accepted then i'll have my very first official publication as a scientist. awesome. and i get to go to sacnas in dallas texas this october to present my research. hopefully everything works out well. it'll definitely give me a boost in berkeley since there are soo many other students competing at the same time. alright, now for the food part. i went to tanforan after school last week to get some stuff. spent exactly 50 bucks that day. less than what i usually do but that was also because i didnt exactly go shopping. just to get what i need. ulta had a sale. so a liter duo for paul mitchell was just 26 bucks and i had a coupon for 3.50 off. awesome or what. too bad they didnt have the tea tree special so i just got their original. it was still really cheap. but bad thing was, i had to lug that around while getting my other stuff. went to target after. got school supplies, toothpaste, lotion and the kind. then off to ichibankan. its like a daiso except much smaller. love that place now. it just opened and i see myself going there very often since they have my favorite japanese snacks and drinks. love the coffee. i always get those in japan. the little cans in the vending machines. thats the only time mom doesnt complain when i get coffee. but thats also because she likes it too. its not too sweet and i like thats it milky. i love my coffee with lots of milk unless i m drinking it to keep myself awake. milk would defeat its purpose wouldnt it. as much as i like it, its expensive though. 2 dollars a bottle?! i got 2 and i already finished one so i couldnt bear to open the other one. they also had matcha milk tea but they ran out. sad. that way, i dont have to go to starbucks no more to get my green tea latte. it does get a little gross when they do add in too much powder. spent about 10 bucks there? so it really isnt cheap considering the things i bought. that aside, i'm really jealous about my bro being in singapore right now. im craving sooo much food and im missing all my favorite restaurants. and im craving for chili too. sambal plus chili padi. i really cant wait to get back in dec. bro's gonna be alone at home the whole of next week too since mom and dad have to go overseas for their meetings. i am certain the house is going to be turned upside down and my dog's gonna be neglected. poor guy. i miss my dog so so much u have no idea. i hugging my soft forever friends bear but it different. oh what am i craving? let's see. top of my list for now is sambal sting ray. then kang kong??!! laksa, chicken rice, black pepper crab, sushi ( i know i can get it here) - im thinking of the hilton buffet on saturdays, the line buffet, crystal jade, thai food, scallops, fishball noodles.... anyone hungry yet? i know i definitely am thats why im stopping here even though theres so much more im craving every second. anyways, fall semester is starting soon. well, almost. time flies. im a lil excited now. but its an on and off thing. i just got all my classes yesterday night. finally. it was so hard to find a 1 unit class. i thought education 198 was all full but nope. so im taking molecular and cell bio-biochemistry, california history to satisfy my american cultures requirement, integrative biology-endocrinology and ed 198. 13 units total. hopefully i'll be able to handle it. mcb is going to be stuff i know. my timetable aint that bad. i start at 1230 on certain days, 9 on some days and 10 on others. the latest time i end is 330. so thats good. i do have a couple of hours break on somedays but i dont mind. get to explore the school more and perhaps do some extra curricular stuff. still need to get my books and probably start reading. i saw that my history class has like 5 books total. am i suppose to finsih reading all that in one semester? and that only for 1 class. okay, i should stop cos the more i talk about it, the more scared i get :( alright, dinner's ready. bread's burnt lol. shall post up pictures later. i promise. >.< |
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