Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind.
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vegas, here i come! Friday, June 26, 2009 going off to vegas tomorrow afternoon for the weekend with parents. outlet shopping and food! oh yes i am excited. bio research isnt going on too well. first screening done. no inhibition and the bacteria was messed up too. staph and e coli was cross contaminated. good thing i saved my extracts. gonna have to get more snails now. sigh.. more hunting and dissecting. gross. today isnt a very good day for the entertainment industry either. but thats how life is... blog more when i get back :) calso! Thursday, June 18, 2009 calso (berkeley orientation) was awesome i must say. lots of stuff i want to blog about but i'm dead beat right now. my legs are sore from all that walking and my brain is dead from information overload so i'll definitely update more another time. i do have to say that i really do love the campus a lot more than i think i would have. people are great too. so not the myth or rumors that people put it out to be. yeah maybe there are a handful out there but the majority of people are really awesome. all really nice and friendly and definitely willing to help out. wasnt much people today in the molecular cell bio department so we got more time to know each other and stuff. still need more time to figure out my classes. totally a pain in the butt. the reality has started to sink in too. like what they said, now that i have registered for my classes and gotton my cal ID card which is like the greatest thing ever with so many discounts and all, i am officially a cal bear/student. still completely nervous about how my first semester will turn out. the change in workload will be significant though. even the first mcb 102 class is gonna be challenging. thats why we're advised to take only 13 units max for our first semester. so yeah, its still intimidating. i think our advisors were really cool. surprisingly more asians than i thought. then again, it is cal. met some really nice peeps too. think i already found a buddy. she's from los angeles. have to say her day was more exhausting than mine. more on that next time. for now, i have to say my decision to study here has really paid off. wouldnt change anything. yeah, sacrifices had to be made especially in monetary terms but i know its gonna be all worth it in the end. i'm not gonna rush myself this time. if i need 2.5 years or 3 years, so be it. think te cal culture would be really interesting. really do want to stay on campus or at least near campus so i maybe i could get more involved somehow. at least not without having to worry about commuting late at night or something. get to know the campus a lot more better too. the campus is huge! each building is like omg. we even have a t rex bone thingy in the middle of the building. and a courtyard in one and geez, who knows what else. the library is gigantic. 28 libraries total i think. i could go on and on. but i ll leave it for next time. or even the next 2 years. looking forward to football games when we rival stanford. never wear red or sit down in a stadium on the hill filled with 40 000 people. exciting 2 years it will be. but for now, i have to say good night cos im seriously a zombie now. GO BEARS! ps. i do have to admit that oski is a lil tad ugly. like a misfit of some sort. popeyes tuesday Wednesday, June 17, 2009 orientations tomorrow! im eggcited! the only bad part is that i have to get up at 5.30 ish. the last time i got up that early is probably 2 years ago on black friday maybe? i'll see how my body reacts to that tomorrow. good thing i have a ride there. asking me to take bart so early in the morning would just be pure torture. so yesterday i just spent my entire day picking out classes for the fall semester. its just part of the before orientation process and i guess its better too so i ll know what classes to register for tomorrow. it was sooo meticulous. so much harder than skyline. its really complicated too. need 120 units to graduate. 60 units must be from letters and science department. 36 must be upper division units and 6 of those must be outside your major department. on top of that, ur own major has certain requirements. molecular and cell biology had its own subdepartments- cell biology, immunmology and pathogenesis, infectious diseases, biochemistry and molecular biology, neurobiology, genetics, genomics and development. yay for so many choices but boo to the fact that i had to make up my mind. was really interested in immunology and pathogenesis or infectious diseases but.. okay now i dont know why i didnt choose it. chose CDB :physiology in the end. didnt just want cell biology alone cos even the 2 electives had to be from the MCB department. at least i could have something different with physiology. and i get to complete the pre reqs from vet school too. there was so much to look into. so then was class picking. i think my schedule is alright. start at 9 on MWF, end at 12 and 8 on TR., end at 3.30. not too bad. i do have a 3-4 hour break on TR though. guess that could be spent exploring the school otherwise duh, studying. ooh fun. their online schedule which is the only way they offer it otherwise it'd be thicker than a phone book, was pretty easy to use but thats only if u know what classes u need. i think im gonna be soo intimidated. each lecture has 4oo people in it. of course some has lesser but still in the hundreds. then we had to pick discussion classes too which i think i will like more with 15 people. i dont know if those are mandatory. so as of now, if it works out, i ll take MCB physiology, MCB genetics, anthropology and psychology. i think it would be quite a heavy load. we'll see. its not confirmed. have to check with the advisor tomorrow. just finished sending case my "proposal". really crappy one actually. i really dont know what my real purpose is. so hopefully she'll enlighten me later. i still need my snails! going to golden gate park on thurs with jan since she was going to have a picnic. hopefully i'll manage to get something otherwise my only other way is to ask joyce to drive me to her bf's place and hopefully strike the jackpot there otherwise i'm pretty much screwed. told her i'll start on the 22nd. parents will be here too then. will have to skip on monday 29th since i'll be in vegas for the weekend and the fares are cheaper on the weekdays. bro will get back on sunday since he cant skip school. hopefully thats alright with case or i'll get my head chopped off. currently waiting for my popeyes' chicken to get home. its tuesday so 2 pieces for a dollar. great or what? i think i ve had popeyes for the past 2 tuesdays already actually. i'm glad im not a health freak. :p mom got me a new phone yesterday. nokia 6260. i think i'l be sticking with nokia for the rest of my life. wanted the E71 but it wasnt in the singtel promotion. oh wells, its all good. its still a slide phone which i like and its silver. done with black for the time being. hopefully i dont screw the screen up without even knowing it this time. i've always been good with my phones, minimal scratches, drops... so this was a bummer. dont think i'll ever like touch screen phones too. i'm weird like that. glad parents are coming over this weekend. dad's in germany now so maybe i'll get chocolates yay! should get my cartier watch and more food too! materialistic. yes i am. as mcuh as i would like to think not. alright, chicken's here. update again later. :) Thursday, June 11, 2009 something's bothering me now but i dont know what it is. doesnt help that its almost bed time either cos that'll only mean that i wont be sleeping until its almost time to get up. maybe its because mom just told me that my dog's not eating. he hasnt eaten for days. i suspect its the auto feeder but i dont know. that also means that he hasnt pooped for days. lol. i'm a lil worried for him but i hope its just because he got bored or something. you know how sometimes u jsut dont feel like eating anything, or not craving anything at all. yes, thats what i mean. mom and dad are going to be here in a weeks time. excited? maybe. i think its the worry season. have tons of things to do. funny thing, i dont even know when i start summer school. i plan to send my proposal tomorrow to case but we'll see if that happens. have to finish my calso tools thingy too. pick out classes for fall. pulls hair. so confusing. why cant i have my own counselor to do that just like in skyline. im being very grumpy now. i had wanted to blog so much just now but i think ill stop now. heres an abrupt ending. the proposal... oh a happy ending. and i teared. muahaha. no, i didnt get a proposal. instead, i went to the premiere of the proposal. jon, janet's bf had tickets to the premiere so we went to watch it. oh if only he had tickets to the premiere of harry potter or twilight. that would be insanely awesome (?) anyhows, the movie was alright. not totally fantastic. sweet and funny as it was, it was way too predictable too except one paart where sandra bullock and the guy ran smack into each other nude. still it was heartwarming. i guess it would still be worth the money to go watch. yay we got it for free. lol. before that, went to have dinner at in and out. weird i havent been there at all even though ive been here for 2 years. its a fast food place like mcdonalds and burger king. but the cool thing about it is that it has a secret menu. otherwise, its regular menu is really simple. but i have their say their secret menu is really good. neopolitan milkshake, animal style fries, 2x2, grilled cheese...etc. i just got their cheeseburger meal though. i have to say that its really good. very fresh. their lettuce and tomato were cold, at first i thought my meat patty was cold but it was actually the veggies. their patty is cooked on the spot too. yums. and their fries are from real potatoes. u can actually see them cut it and fry it. i think its gonna be my fav fast food place now. so i just got rejected for resident tuition fees for berkeley too. sigh. i can appeal but i doubt it would be successful too. their reason was that even though i am physically present in CA, i'm not financially independent and claimed as a dependent on an individuals tax forms. plus my nonresident parents are my source of support so great. i dont know if i should bother to appeal. i do have one month to do it though. maybe i'll conjure up a heart throb story to convince them. lol. i cannot see my parents pay 16 000 bucks PER semester. that means 32000 a year excluding books! compared to 5000 or 10 000 a year for residents. see how useful that 1000 bucks scholarship is. i think im gonna deal with that financial aid thing tomorrow. bangs head. off to bed... Monday, June 08, 2009 i should really get off the com and start going to bed earlier. been sleeping at 1am lately and thats not good cos i end up getting up really late. and it just makes my day seem so short and like im totally wasting my time. lol. make sense? oh whatever. just finished video calling with mom. i got to see puppy again. he's so adorable. cant agree with me more after u see the picture below. i made mom take a photo of him. i bet she's annoyed everytime i talk to her online cos i keep bugging her to call him out. he spends his time in the kitchen sun tanning so she has to lure him out using food and once he gets what he wants, he goes back inside. lazy bum. he cant even sit or stand still without lying down for a minute. no wonder he has a beer belly. no he doesnt drink. i just felt like using that phrase. me and my randomness. didnt do much today again but i got a whole list of things planned out for this coming week. i shall use my time wisely from now on. first off, settle my research project. got some clue of how to get it going. now i just have to read more journals. that just totally puts me off. people just use way too much technical terms. its almost impossible for me to understand what their research is about much less the results. and all the acronyms just puzzle me. on top of that, their journal can go on and on and on, sometimes up to 20 odd pages. i'll see how that goes but i dont forsee a good outcome. im probably going to just get so bored after the first paragraph. why cant they use layman terms and just say their procedures and results so it makes it easier to comprehend. i know i know. then theres no meaning to getting a phD right. everyone can be a scientist then. i must quit whining. so, another thing to do is to find snails. thats going to be fun. i seriously have no idea where to find them. its summer now too so i'm definitely not going to bet on rain. i might give the fog a 30%. help anyone? i'd be thoroughly screwed if i dont find any. someone just let me know of a location. u dont have to pick them if you're the squirmish kind. but i need snails!! thats a big problem. have to finish my calso advising before orientation too. thats not much of a problem. might just get that done tomorrow. and driving. the theory book is boring.... i always fall asleep after one or two pages. still, i know i need to get to it. been putting it off way too long now. okay, its almost 12. maybe i ll sleep an hour earlier. if i can actually fall asleep. time to start counting sheep now. im surprised it works sometimes.  i dont know why his one eye is smaller but he's so adorable all the same. i watched marley and me again today and i cant stop myself from tearing everytime i see or read it.  dad got him an auto feeder since they're coming over for 2 weeks. i told them to get it a while ago since they're always away. but im afraid they'll get so used to it that they'll stop hand feeding him. and thats not good. cos feeding them is actually bonding time. hopefully that doesnt happen but i doubt so.the hangover Saturday, June 06, 2009 no, i did not get a hangover. instead, i went to watch the hangover today with jack. it was the stupid funny comedy kind of movie, perfect for a lazy friday afternoon. woke up at 11 again this morning and waited for him to pick me at 1. went to hillsdale and we walked around. surprised the mall was really empty. wanted to shop really badly but since i was with a guy i felt bad if he had to wait for me and stuff so we just walked into random shops. but there was gap, banana republic, huge old navy, forever 21, abercrombie, holliser, american eagle, victoria secret! oh, victoria secret has a collection for cal! sweatpants and tops and shorts. i want but expensive though. all my favorite shops! boo. i shall drag someone there with me and i shall crazy shop. went into hallmark and i played with the singing/talking mugs again. he bought 2 on impulse. lol. but theyre really adorable. love their hoops and yoyo collection. i got the graduation photo frame from the family and i could press the button the whole day listening to them talk crap. i do want the travel mug too. "im drinking my coffee, from my travel mug. i think its driving me crazy, wut wut wut wut wut...." its seriously sings that. went to sweet factory too. its jsut a shop that has every kind of dispensable candy. the ones where u get a bag and stuff it with tooth decaying goodness and they cost by weight. didnt get much. i wanted so many of them but couldnt set my mind to it so i went away with 3 bucks worth of candy unsatisfied. i had a weird mix. choclate malt balls, sour strips, sour peaches, banana strawberry gummies. ooh, we went into this awesome sunglasses shop. it has technology that no other places have. so basically u try on a pair, walk to this machine and u can change the scenery and amount of glare plus wind speed and uv rays. so its almost like youre outdoors and see if that pair really fits you. awesome or what? i just started playing around with it so we were in there for quite a while. too bad they had such a small collection for women like only 2 walls while the guys have the rest of the shop. sexist or what. but the glasses were really expensive though. after all it was mainly oakleys. got tired of the mall so we went back to tanforan to catch the movie. just in time. it didnt even seem like it was 2 hours long. was laughing throughout. went bj's for dinner after since i hadnt eaten anything the whole day. okay i sorta did if u count a pack of oatmeal and candy. appetite hasnt been good these past days anyways. had the classic baked potato and i couldnt finish it. too much starch and carbs. haha. went home after. oh i have to say his car has a great function for people who dont put on their seatbelts. or forget to put on their seatbelts. when u open the door, the belt slides forward so u sit behind it and when u close the door, the belt moves backwards until ure fastened. no need to move ur hands and fiddle around with it. its liek youre a princess. lol. u even have someone to put on your seatbelt! handsfree. showered and played wii again. i think im getting sick of carnival games though. unlocked more stuff and bought more stuff. i really look like a clown now, with the hat nose and shoes. hand got really tired so went back and watched videos. and here i am now. i think im really killing my eyes. oh wells. i think im starting to panic about my snails and research stuff. didnt start on anything yet and im really afraid that i can find any snails. the rainy days are gone and so are the foggy days or so it seems. i know i still have a week or 2 but still,i should really get this going. i think i shall just enjoy my last weekend and get serious next week. wonder how im gonna get that thought accomplished. im still procrastinating about blogging on my texas trip. and i feel like a disappointment to teddy. i really am starting to rot. its midnight now. good night peeps. who says fairytales arent real? Friday, June 05, 2009 i've officially become a rotting dog. i dont know why im feeling guilty for doing nothing when its the holidays. somebody enlighten me. but that rotting behavior is gonna be broken tomorrow. im finally going out to the mall and maybe a movie with silly buddy tomorrow. and of course, that means shopping! dont think there'll be too good of a sale since theres no special occasion but we'll see. other than that, life's been mundane all week. i wake up at 11, eat brunch, sit at the couch for hours, go on the com and watch more videos for hours, play the wii and get so addicted to it, have dinner, watch more teevee, chat online and sleep at 1am. how wonderful is life? i know i need to savor every moment of this cos it'll be over soon especially once my research gets going. that also means i need to find my pet snails soon and do more research on pubmed. sigh. im already on the waitlist for the summer class. wonder why she's taking so many people this summer. all the same.. i still cant exactly believe the fact that i'll be going to cal next semester. the stress level that i'll be dealing with will be immense. the competitiveness and rumors about sabotage that cal is famous for somehow does scare me to say the least. coming from skyline where everyone is just so relaxed and carefree, just fresh out of high school, its gonna be a huge difference. i dont know how much im really looking forward to it. just like the devil wears prada, many people would die to go to cal. and im here whining. oh the irony. when will we ever be satisfied? i think i just need a break away from here now. a vacation. oh screw that, i want my dog. or at least a pet. beats staring at the wall. i'm a clingy person. gramppies asked if i wanted to go with them to view a house on sunday. i dont know if they want us to move out soon. apparently the house has 7 rooms and 2 bathrooms, not very well balanced anyways, its pretty cheap for that many rooms but its in san francisco. i dont wanna live there. i d rather stick in san bruno or millbrae. plus what am i gonna do with so many rooms to myself? seriously now. momsie and dad wont be coming anytime soon too. dont really wanna go but i dont have a choice. i am feeling very negative now. should go to bed.its 12.30am. hence the mood. off to grab some photos of puppy and nightdream. maybe if we were really living here, things would be different. sigh... summer vacation! Tuesday, June 02, 2009 yay for summer! been a couple of days since graduation and all ive been doing is sitting in front of the computer or the television. yesterday was just awesome. me and jan were just sitting in front of the television while having lunch and watching mythbusters for more than 4 hours. we were nodding off every few minutes so we werent exactly watching teevee. havent had the chance to do that in a while without constantly having to worry about uncompleted assignments. i need to spend these 2 weeks or so wisely and make the most out of it. that includes cleaning up my room and dumping all my useless trash, doing more research on snails and come up with my supply list and procedures, more on that later, and finally study my driving manual. plus, play more video games. so glad the wii is upstairs now :) anyways, friday was great. stayed in school after math final which was incredibly easy except for 2 questions, one which i guessed correctly and one i really dont know. stayed in the cafeteria since mesa was not open yet. kept procrastinating to see dr case about the research. yes i was scared. see how people get intimidated by her? finally went up and there was someone in there so waited outside for a while more. sat in and it really wasnt too bad. told her some of my ideas. really wanted to do the research to see if household pets had any anitibiotic resistance but i dont have a pet and neither does she. so she said i could ask my friends if they have one to get samples for me or go to the vet and tell them what i wanted to do. she asked for an alternative just in case so i said something on paramecium growth since i forgot what was on her website. she looked around for a bit and even went on pubmed to search for it. all i did was sit there and look around her office while she searched for it. felt weird. but i must say her office is one kind of office. she has all her awards on the walls and she has tons. her wall is filled. and lots of frogs and lizards around too. didnt look around too much though. that means more trips to her office. she couldnt find it exactly so i told her since one group was doing antimicrobial activity in cockroaches, i could do something other than cockroaches. she said snails and began looking again for articles. didnt manage to get a lot at first. the results all came back with skin treatment and stuff from the snail's mucus. gross. her reaction was funny too. its always better to know her so it doesnt get too scary. plus she really nice. looked around and i guess she found something since she just said, okay, start looking for snails. i was like okay... where can i find them? lol. we went out of her office and actually went to the back of building seven to see if there were any. she knew there was a door that goes to the back of the building but didnt know where it was located in the building so we just walked around. didnt manage to find any since it was sunny and the constructors just manicured the plants and place. oh wells. better luck maybe on foggy days. anyways, i m just gonna hunt around asking for my friends help. hopefully i ll get something within the next few weeks. i still have time. went back to mesa and played scrabble with dagan. i won haha. played monopoly after too. then they had to close mesa and i still an hour before the sweeney ridge clean up. hung out with rystian at the library for a bit basically on facebook trading ingredients. haha. walked up to the parking lot where we were suppose to meet and dr case was already there plus a few others. she told people to look out for snails for me. haha. sadly we didnt find any. or i have to say i didnt really try. rushed home after to shower and change for graduation. jon drove me there since i had to get there by 4.15. got there at 4 since i though we were gonna give joyce lee our counselor a gift but they were somewhat late. so i waited outside for them. saw dr case again and she was gowned up too. it was funny she looked at me and saw me in heels and said i changed. duhh. im not going there sweaty and all. got a lil frustrated with them later since i called and they kept saying they were on the way but not there yet. so i just went downstairs where we were waiting in line. i kept fixing my cap. shoudl have put in bobby pins. saw case again. sadly, i didnt have my camera or i would have asked for a picture. oh wells. she fixed my cap too. lol. the whole thign was alright. soemthing bad happened to me but ive gotton over it. not tooo bad. haha. or mayeb it is especially in front of all the professors. bleah. it happens. that way people rememebr me >.<> alyssa's party on saturday. didnt do much. shopped for gifts in the morning at tanforan. i really want to go shopping! kinda broke but hey i got grad money to spend and mom and dad and coming soon :) retail therapy anyone? after the party, went to watch up at 11pm. love pixar movie. the movie was really cute but really sad at the same time too. even the short before the movie made me go awww and almost teared. what do i have to say about the movie: love. go watch! i would watch it a million times. i think its one of my fav pixar movie. i dont think this one was really suited for young kids though. mom and dad's coming on june 20. might go to vegas or LA one weekend or something. depends on school and stuff. dont know where they'll stay yet. still glad that theyre coming. bring back goodies for me. by that i mean food. still bitter about not going back to singapore. 2 weeks aint enough and i dont want to risk a thousand bucks getting quarantined. seriously its just a flu. the normal flu kills more people than the swine flu and i dont see panic when that happens. i just really want to see my dog and eat and hang out at my house. read MY house. i dont know how im going to get to berkeley's orientation on june 17. it starts at 7.30am and i dont even know the area yet or how to get there well. sigh. there comes my new life. but for now, i shoudl go to bed. lappys battery getting low and its 12.30am. plan to do more cleaning up tomorrow. pictures next time |
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