Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind.
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Thursday, May 28, 2009 am almost at the home stretch now. just 2 more days before graduation. as much as i want to shout hooray and move on, i really really cant bear to leave skyline. it seriously feels like home. i literally spend 3/4 of my day in school. i think im someone who resists change. see i have no finals tomorrow but im still going to go to school. lol. no, its because i have graduation rehearsals. wonder how that ll go. think it might just be a waste of time though. finals have been alright i guess. as expected i screwed up on physics. im just not a physics person especially when u include circuits and charges and inductors and whatever crap that provides you with electricity and keeps the world moving. really hope i dont have to ever take physics again. i'll take a hundred bio classes if i have to to avoid physics. chemistry was okay. i got my B as expected. i hate the feeling of walking out of class after a final and knowing that i ll just never perhaps ever see a person again. chem class was awesome this semester. time just passed so fast in lecture you really dont realize one hour has passed. thats the only class i dont mind going to this whole semester. oh wells. life it is. its 12am now i really should go to bed. still have to do my math cheatsheet tomorrow and finish my slr stuff. and do a lil bit of research on my bio research if im going to talk to her abt it on friday. ps. dont think i ll be going back this summer :( start of finals Friday, May 22, 2009 i'm about to go insane.. on my 3 hour break right now before physics lab. what makes me more mad is the fact that he said it will be a full lab so we definitely wont get out early but stay until 5pm. bummer. i have my organic chemistry final tomorrow at 8am! and im not done studying or at least dont remember anything. too many reactions. im glad he's gonna give us a 3 page reaction sheet though. hopefully it helps. so far, ive only read through the first 2 exams but thats just reading so i still need to do thepractice problems. too much!! dont think i ll be getting any sleep tonight. alright, i should get off my laptop and make full use of my 3 hour break. hocus focus is the spell im going to use and hopefully it works. im surprised the cafeteria is pretty empty. im pretty sure its because its thursday and the last day of lecture so most peple are skipping classes. very very predictable. but thats all good. better sdtudying environment. :) PS. im still contemplating whether i shoudl go back to singapore in the summer. i really do but there's other stuff to deal with plus it'll only be for 2 weeks. worth it? mom says shes gonna buy a ticket so bro can use my dad's mileage when he goes back in july. and that means a thousand bucks gone. two weeks=14 days. 1000/14 = 71. plus ticket to hong kong and macau because im sure we're going there. i dont know if the money spent willbe worth it too... sigh. shall think of it only after chemiistry final. time to hit the books now. yay for fridays! Saturday, May 16, 2009 I just can’t believe that I only have 2 more weeks before my time at skyline officially ends. (Well almost, unless I’m really going to take summer school which I really hope to do.) I really have to say I love skyline a lot. I do feel like I have accomplished a lot there. Its really nice to see people say hi or how are you as you walk down the hallway. People are just really friendly and open. They really don’t judge as much. The professors are awesome too. They’re really willing to help you out and although some of them may seem mean or cold in class, they’re really nice. One great example would be dr case. I’ll have to say she’s my favorite prof in the school. I just recently heard that she got her masters at 22. I wont get my bachelors till im 21! Still trying to guess her age. Haha. So yes, I don’t know why I started this post this way but I’m sure I ll definitely miss skyline a lot. I do a proper dedication post when I truly graduate haha. Anyways, today was alright. I forgot my phone!!! One of the worst days since I was going to be in school till 8pm. There were 2 events going on, mesa and the transfer center recognitions. I ended school at 12 today but didn’t want to go home and back again (save gas=save the earth! Haha) so practically sat in front of my laptop for 5 hours. Watched an episode of survivor and wandered around the world wide web for the rest of the time. Sat around at the mesa party for a while and then went downstairs to the transfer. Good thing they were held in the same building. Got some food but it wasn’t good. Even the sushi was bad. Mushy rice puts me off. Saw joyce lee my counselor. Haven’t seen her in ages only because I don’t have to update my sep. haha. Had to thank her. She helped me the most with my personal statement. She’s super nice too. To sum it up, people in skyline are awesome! Lol. Rushed back upstairs after getting our certs since mesa was starting to give out their certs. Got back just in time. Hung out a while more and since I forgot my phone, jan came at 8 so I had to leave. Otherwise I would usually call when I’m done. Okay, im getting bored now. shall go watch more survivor. Lol. Smell ya later….. i love chemistry Friday, May 15, 2009 i am stressed out and ready for vacation!!!! o chem exam tomorrow is gonna be lots of fun! *smiley face* happy mother's day Monday, May 11, 2009 HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY! Sadly, I can’t spend it with mom again this year but it’s alright. I’ll get to see her again really really soon. I’m pretty sure she said they’ll be coming on june 20 so I’m looking forward to that. Hopefully, I’ll still be able to go back right after finals even if its just for 2 weeks or less. Especially since I know I’ll be going to hong kong too if I do go back. There’s just not enough time. Anyways, I think I got her a gift that cant be any better. That is getting into Berkeley. She couldn’t be happier. i mean I finally got into a school that would please them. Tanglin disappointed them since they wanted me to get into rgs and jurong did too. At least those schools didn’t turn out too bad. =) I want to see mom and dad and doggy now! So I got woken up really early this morning at 8.45am since we were going to have breakfast. Sighs. When can I ever sleep in? definitely not for the next 2 weeks. Went to denny’s. I used to like going there but the food is getting from bad to worse. I want mom to make me my breakfast. >.<> Went to uncle kenneth’s yesterday evening to celebrate mother’s day. Good food. I mean really good food, though you can always expect that If uncle Kenneth was going to be the chef. The scallops and chicken wings were my favorite. So good. Didn’t do much there. I basically wasted my Saturday. In the morning went out with joyce to shop for mother’s day gift. Finally got earrings at target. Went home to cook hamburgers with almost bad ground beef. Watched tool academy. It was bad but entertaining. We somewhat got caught on to it. It’s one of those shows that you would watch only when there’s nothing else on. The marathon of the previous season was on so we just spent 5 hours on the couch and more when we got to uncle kenneth’s. very bad. Got home at 11. was so sleepy then and I slept at 12 without even touching one bit of my homework which I had initially planned to do. Boo. On Thursday was the students awards and recognition ceremony. Left physics lab early since i was planning to go to it. Was alright. Went way faster than we thought it would. It started at 4 and ended at 5-5.30. I almost tripped while walking across the stage. It was very badly paved. Luckily, nothing embarrassing happened. So I got a medallion for the honors transfer program and two certs for the scholarship. The san bruno rotary actually enclosed their cheque in the cert so yay, I’m 500 bucks richer except that I didn’t bank it in yet. Too bad dr case didn’t go since she had lab otherwise she would be the one presenting the other scholarship since it was from her family. The other advisor for ptk took over and he was bad at talking. He didn’t even quite know what our chapter got. I mean duh, he’s not even active in our activities. Oh wells. I still need to find a way to go thank her. I’ve been invited to go to a luncheon with the college president on may 20 to meet the san bruno rotary people and thank them for the scholarship. Looking forward to that. And I’m going with someone else I know so it should be too bad. Plus I get to leave history class early too. The president’s gonna drive us there and back so that’s good too. Alright I should get started with my pile of stuff. Its already called last minute work. Have my speech exam tomorrow, art on tues and chemistry on Friday! 
Thursday, May 07, 2009 I have been finding it increasingly hard to concentrate and focus on finishing the last few weeks of school. It’s really frustrating really. I do want to at least get my physics and chemistry right and finish it on a good note but at the same time, I feel really restless. I guess I’m just way too excited to transfer over to Berkeley. I know though when I do start school there, I’ll just wish I was back at skyline. It’s the irony of life and school. School’s been alright this week. No tests and exams so that’s the plus or rather the reason why it’s alright. Been feeling really bored in lectures though. So yesterday, went to the mall after school to try to find something to wear for tomorrow’s awards ceremony. It was really hard to find something good. I guess it’s because there’s no special occasion going on other than mother’s day but then the clothes would all be for the oldies. Saw a couple that I liked at forever 21 but they didn’t have my size. All in medium or large and there’s no way I could alter it to make it fit me. =( American eagle a lil but too casual. Got a pencil skirt at basic but then I had trouble looking for a top. Nothing really looks right. Or maybe it’s just me. Finally got a dress at anchor blue but I need to find a jacket otherwise I’ll either be freezing cold or wearing that same old white jacket again. oh wells, I’ll find something tonight. I think I just need to start going to a different mall like serramonte. Need to stop going to tanforan but I can’t help it since it’s the closest to home. And I still need to see how I can ditch physics lab tomorrow. Have to check in at 3.15 to get everything settled and meet harer for the honors at 3.45. problem is lab starts at 2.30 and I have to get out and change at 3? Lastest 3.15. I can always drop one lab but I don’t know. He doesn’t seem very fond of people missing labs. Sighs. PTK meeting today was funny. Entertaining I must say. Gonna be telling stories to lil kids on Tuesday at the childcare opposite our school. I should say its located on our school grounds. Alright, gonna stop here now. try to find something motivating so I can get started on physics or work on my speech outline. But I think its not gonna work since I just clicked on bejeweled on facebook. Lol. Peace out. stuck at home Monday, May 04, 2009 It’s a rainy Sunday and once again I’m stuck at home. I desperately want to go out and shop but obviously I don’t drive so there’s no way I’m stepping out of the house. Plus it’s raining. One more reason to stay in and rot away even when there’s a pile of stuff waiting to be done. i think I’ll go to tanforan on Tuesday after school to try and find something formal enough to wear for Thursday but not too formal since I ll still have class and wont be going home to change. I wonder if theres anyone else in physics lab that’s going to the awards ceremony. I used to have Maggie but she dropped the class. I don’t want to be that ‘special’ one that has to ask permission from him. Best thing is that theres no lab but I highly doubt so. Guess I’ll just have to ask to leave early again. I can drop a lab so I guess that’ll be the one I’m dropping. Watched tons of videos yesterday. Top model, survivor, that channel 8 drama about school or rather Chinese, its me or the dog. Got a lil bored at times but that’s all good. I wish my parents were here now somehow. We could go downtown and shop and eat instead of being stuck at home in my room. I really don’t care about school work anymore and that’s really really bad. I need to remind myself that I can still be rejected in the end if my grades aren’t satisfactory for this semester. Okay, off to get lunch, finish my art and then watch more videos… =) Sunday, May 03, 2009 It’s a gloomy Saturday morning. Got waken up by the cleaning people at 9 in the morning. Was so sad. I do not wake up at 9 on the weekends! Especially after a harsh week. Oh wells, still I stayed locked up in my room. Surfed the net for a while till my battery died. By then it was 11. changed, walked around my room and here they are. They just left 15 minutes ago. So now I can do whatever I want in peace. =)
Got an email from dad and he and mom got me something from Cartier! Omg. I still don’t know what it is but im thinking a watch and bag looking at the bags? I’m really happy but at the same time guilty. They really didn’t have to spend that kind of money. They could have spent it on getting a ticket for me to go back. Plus, the tuition fees that will be billed to them in a couple of months will be enough to make them go broke. Still, I’m just really glad that I could make them this happy. I knew I had to get in there somehow. This was exactly how I pictured it. Don’t know what im going to do today. Still have some homework to complete and administrative stuff that I have to look into soon so I don’t miss any deadlines or that will jeopardize my spot. Yes, they can deny my application if I don’t meet their requirements. I should post up that whole list here one day. Its insane. And it scares the crap out of me. I guess I should make lunch even though I just and I mean like 5 minutes ago, finished my oatmeal. Im turning into a pig. Or kinda. Im really not eating very healthily at all, and I don’t mean by having junk all the time(I do but that’s not what im trying to get at). Have not been eating breakfast and lunch on most days im in school. I just don’t know what to bring from home that isn’t troublesome and I don’t like the cafeteria food. Its expensive and its Mexican, most of it excluding burgers and hotdogs and the salad bar. Oh, I heard Berkeley has the best food. It holds the equivalent of the Oscars for the entertainment industry. I need to make a trip down there soon. All ive seen is videos and pictures of Berkeley. Never actually been there in person. Not that it matters since I ll be there in person for 2 years now.. =)=) cal-ifornian Saturday, May 02, 2009 I want to say that reality still hasn’t sunk in. it’s only been a day since my dream has finally come true but I figured after that long exhausting wait and countless times that I self doubted myself, I would be over the moon by now. Apparently, that’s not the case and I don’t know why. Not surprising though, my parents are way more excited than I am. Although, they are still unfortunately chiding me about not applying to Cornell university even though they offered me priority admission, still not guaranteed admission like Davis but still a priority. I never thought about going to New York so there wasn’t a need to spend the application fee that I needed to pay if I was going to apply there. I did think about it, not that I just threw the letters that they sent away without even any consideration. Oh wells, there’s no point saying anything now and I am very satisfied with what I got so I need to quit whining. Instead, I can finally say that grades are not the only thing that matters anymore. I know for sure that I am not in the average range, but rather in the below average range considering my GPA. Last year if I remember correctly, it was between 3.69-3.8. I’m pretty sure it was my personal statement that saved me more specifically, phi theta kappa. So my advice to the next transferring batch, work on your personal statement as early as possible and get help with it! (not like anyone I know knows this blog. Lol.)
Now, its time for the administrative stuff I have to deal with. They want me to submit immediately whatever coursework from JJC (ps. They even spelt it wrong. Instead of junior, its juinion) but I ve got nothing from there. Have to call them up next week and get everything settled. For now, I shall try to enjoy my weekend. Not too much homework to complete since this week was most of the exams. Plus, dagan even did my physics webassign for me. Lol. I was totally kidding. But it wasn’t worth that much points and half of them were multiple choice which equals to free points. Next order of business is summer. I’m still contemplating if I should do research. Im afraid to talk to her and I don’t know why. Maybe next wed after the meeting for ptk. I ll pluck up my courage and talk to her. I swear she’s the most intimidating teacher ever. Otherwise, I get to spend 2 plus months back in Singapore. Of course, I ll turn out to be a super unproductive person. We’ll see. Might start researching for internships although the deadlines for most of them would be over by now. worst come to worst, I ll even take a class. Lol. Or maybe even find a job working with furry pals. Alright, off to watch my videos now. today’s not any normal Friday. I usually get home and start watching videos that I missed during the week but today, I stayed in school till 3, got home and wandered around the net. Watched a movie during dinner, showered and here I am. Oh yes, just in. I got my admission package from Berkeley!! Promise to blog with pictures about texas soon. =) cal bear! Friday, May 01, 2009 Congratulations, Jessica! You're admitted! Welcome to the College of Letters and Science as a transfer for Fall 2009. I GOT ACCEPTED INTO BERKELEY!!!! Omg. The suspense was horrible but at least it payed off. Before physics lab, a group of us were in MESA and we were like hitting the refresh button every 5 minutes. Had to leave for physics but a while into it, Jacquie texted me and told me she got in. I was happy for her but at the same time, I was like crap, the time for me to know has come. Good thing our lab today was really carefree. We had to get the values by group and we were at the back so it was a while before we could do anything. Plus, we had to use the com too so I could use my laptop and pretend to be doing physics without being caught. Immediately went online to check it and I was going to die! It’s the worst time to surf the net. Haha. So I went to the page and probably hit the wrong button so I got directed to the FAQ page and was just going omg omg, I just need to log in so stop directing me to stupid pages. Finally logged in and I was elated. I didn’t know how to feel when I saw the word congratulations. Immediately messaged mom and dad and got a call from them a second later. lol. Guessed they didn’t actually sleep at all. That I feel kinda bad but oh wells. It’s the first time I can sleep 4 hours and not be tired at all plus wake up even before my alarm. Tonight, I will hibernate like a bear haha. Too bad I still have school tomorrow. Well, the first question people asked once they find out I got accepted is whether I was gonna commute everyday or move. I really don’t know. Now that the happy part is over, there’s tons of administrative stuff to do. Its gonna be a pain but I suppose its all worth it. Have to notify the different offices tomorrow about it and get transcripts and all that kinda stuff in mostly by july. Theres still time but I don’t want to put it off. For the fun part now, I finally get to click the do not intend to register for sf state now. muahaha. Their deadline is tomorrow anyway… alright, should get some sleep now. I just realizes sleeping like a bear meant I am officially a CAL BEAR!! Yay!! Happiest day of my life? the worst wait of my life i am currently in school going through the worst wait of my life. this is painful. so far i think ive checked my mail and the website 5 times. probably not the worst it can get but yeah. it went from typing in your ID and seeing the words in review to not even being able to log in because the system is being updated. its nervewrecking!!! never felt this way ever for secondary school or even jc. probably because i very well exected myself not to do that well. but this time, i have no clue whatsoever. i wouldnt say a 50 50 chance but im soo uncertain. well, this will obviously be solved in a couple of hours maybe even minutes who knows but i wished i had an iphone or something so i will know when i get an email instead of finding a computer every so often to check it. even though i have my laptop, i cant turn it every so often. my laptop will probably die on me even before i know my results. i need to do something to keep me occupied but i cant think of anything to do. just completed my exams for this week. still have physics and art homeowrk to complete but thats due on sunday so im definitely not going to be crazy and do them now. 45 minutes to physics lab... gonna be a boring one too. oh wells, i just need to get over this. a couple more hours. i will TRY to survive.... |
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