homework homework and more homework

Monday, February 23, 2009

it's raining again. i like the rain. it has a warm fuzzy feeling to it. i would totally sleep in if not for the constant thought that we were going to be do something.

slept at 2am yesterday. was rushing to complete the case study. i didnt really know what to do with it. i could type in stuff but it was already over the word limit so i just shifted things around my way so that it would flow better. tried cutting down words but that just meant taking sentences away. i don t know. its just that i feel that i havent done enough. it doesnt feel like my work. i dont know whose. most prob case. at least its gonna be over soon. more time to concentrate on the other stuff on my to do list which is never cleared. i have 2 tests this week and its killing me. i keep putting things off. i should get off this now. i was just using this to procrastinate more. yes ,what a paradox if its even used properly.

i had the weirdest dream ever. i'm still wondering what happened to the rabbit.

sad house transformation

Sunday, February 22, 2009

im super sad now. i think its called a mid house crisis.

pingpong drink game

Saturday, February 21, 2009

nothing special really. as i predicted, i ll be home whisking away homework which till now, i deem unsuccessful. i dont know why its just so hard to take out the big fat heavy chem or physics book and start reading away. i spent half the morning and half the afternoon surfing the web for designer goods which i can only look at and add to my wish list but wait for a hundred years before they actually go into my closet. i want a walk in closet and make it look like a mall, like the one princess mia has in the princess diaries. theoretically not impossible, practically, i may continue dreaming. i dont know why im typing this because i was suppose to be saying how im munching on royce chocolates from japan. this is sooo random. maybe its the valentine blues. lol. jon was sweet though. he put roses outside my door which i didnt even notice at first when i went to the bathroom.

okay, i think my 4 day weeekend is gonna be wasted and im already feeling guilty. parrty tomorrow for marcel's birthday. i think im gonna be soo bored. its all lil kids. okay maybe not so lil but still... monday reserved for chemistry i think. hopefully i do start somehow.

i are happy i made a powerpoint for mom and dad for valentines.

i are homesick again

i want a puppy kiss and hug and tail whack. hahaha. i want to go to the playground and lay on the grass with him and feel his warmth. what can i say. hes the best dog yet. did i ever mention i want a golden retriever, siberian husky, spaniel, saint bernard when i get my own house and perhaps a kittty too. plus a couple of hamsteers. maybe even a bunny. im serious.

my house used to be like a zoo. and i like it that way. now its just empty.

i miss my puppy. a lot.

my new toy-i call it my baby laptop. cheesy i know. i got the golden brown colored one but couldnt find a nice picture of it.

the watch i got at forever 21.

who can say no to a 4 day weekend? definitely not me! 4 weeks of school and im already struggling. this must be the hardest semester yet. no one should ever torture themselves by taking 23 units. seriously take this advice unless you're a child prodigy or sth. or maybe taking crappy classes then go for it. week's been alright. just realy looking forward to the weekend so wasnt concentrating much.

chem lab on monday was screwed and horrible. had to redo the whole experiment again next next monday. plus i cut myself with steel wool while trying to get it apart. =( i was so afraid it would cause an infection too. but its alright not. i have to say it was pretty painful worse than a paper cut. cos it was deeper. at least it healed now or sort of. (remember 4 day weekend = monday no school = happy me) tuesday was just alright. i got sooo annoyed with my physics professor. he just got on my bad side and he's the first after 2 years at skyline or going to 2 years. his lectures are horrible and boring to begin with. he made it worst by prolonging a stupid problem that was entirely in the book. it was a dipole moment charged ring problem and he was trying to make us derive or prove the equation. he started writing stuff down and asked us questions which we answered but werent sure if we were right. and i forgot what went on since i got soo annoyed. we literally spent serveral minutes silent cos we didnt know the answer. so someone started saying that it should be R^2 and not r^2 or sth like that and he was like right, cos there's bullcrap on the board now. i was like thanks, you just wasted the entire class writing crap and waiting till now to say its wrong. by then, class already ended and he was like, finish it as homework and attach acover page. i was like wth. good thing that was my last class of the day. i seriously wanted to strangle him. typing it makes me mad too.

anyways, so i went off to take the bus since janet was at school the whole day. (we cant do proper studying at home, its way too distracting) so i bus-ed to tanforan mall to buy stuffo. it was amazing. i got on the 11.17am bus. reached around 11.30ish or so. and i zipped through the mall in one hour and took the 12.34pm bus home. it was quite fun if i may say so. i had a list of things i wanted to buy in mind so that saved me tons of time too. went to forever 21 to get a watch that i fell in love with the first time i saw it. it was cheap too since it was plastic though it looks like leather and it has fake diamonds on it. lol. but i still like it. went to ulta after since i needed to get shampoo. got my favourite paul mitchell tea tree. wasnt as expensive as i thought it would be. was contemplating if i should get the purple opi nail polish but decided not to until i went to the counter to pay and saw the mini's in a pack of four. and it had the purple one i wanted. so of course i got it. to think i could resist the urge to spend more. haha! next stop was mrs fields. got 20 nibblers for 5 bucks. all milk chocolate. yums. off to target next. got 2 boxes of oatmeak. peach and strawberry. those are excellent for a quick and yum breakfast especially on a cold morning. or when we run out of milk. lol. got other misc stuff too. spent 60 odd bucks altogether. so 60 bucks in an hour it is. muahaha. its not that often i do such quick shopping. but thats the kind of stuff you can do only when you're alone. i want to go on another shopping spree. this time for clothes! it would be impossible to zip through the mall this time though. anyone up for it? i do have to get clothes if i want to go the the international convention so i do need to go on a formal shopping spree. =)

had math test on thurs was alright. integration... it was physics that made everyone go crazy again. our homeowrk was due at midnight so everyone was rushing it out in mesa. was hilarious. also got dr case to do a letter or recommendation for me for scholarships. finally got her to do it. she's intimidating alright. but shes really nice and smart too. her office was secluded in a corner which was kinda cool. didnt manage to scan through her office entirely since i just wanted to get out after she said yes before she asked me anythign about the case study which i have yet to do. at least i got a rec which i m happy about. got prof bates to do the other one. those are two profs that im closer with. only because i worked with them for a couple of semesters. there definitely are others that are really nice too and we do say hi when we walk past. what can i say, i like skyline. back to physics, dagan even got us brownies and cupcakes from the cafeteria. of course we had to pay him back. had a cupcake for 50cents. its small things like this and people around you that gives one a smile and make doing homework that much more pleasant. it was after lab that everyone really started to panic. finally finished at 6. got home and watched grey's. kinda cool how grey;s and private practice crossed over though i have to catch up on private practice.

spent today watching videos. got up kinda late so nothing productive came out. so i conclude that today is my rest day. start studyign tomorrow. i have tons of tests coming up and a speech to write up too. sigh. and my body isnt helping. i think my wisdom teeth is growing out and it aint good cos my gum at the end is kinda swollen. hope it rides over soon. it usually does. and my finger is swollen too. dont know why. its been like that for a couple of weeks now. not like theres a cut or anything. it just is. as though theres a lymph node in there or something. if only i was in singapore now. i could just zip off to the ridgewood clinic or off to camden. hope i go back to normal. lol.

tomorrow's v day and i dont really care about it or have nothing to care if i should say so. unless u consider studies. but speaking of that again, i dont exactly love studying. lol. though i have to say its beetter than work. dont think theres gonna be anyone at home. joyce is in korea now. now i miss the times when i was there with mom and dad. i just want to go traveling again like we always do. ( i do realize i have yet to blog or post pictures about my winter vacation) will do that tomorrow night maybe? depends. thinking about it just makes me homesick. i guess its just the familiarity. how you know where everything is, the feeling of home. where i am now is home but not my home. and there is a difference obviously. sometimes i ask. if i stayed in singapore for just a short while, would i still like that country? i do feel attached to it somewhat in a way. afterall, thats where i spent my childhood. no questions about that. and maybe again, its just the people, friends... school. maybe things would be different if mom and dad were living here too. oh wells. that ll have to wait. i ve been saying i wont be going back in the summer but i wonder if i can bear not to. i know my bro will definitely be going back. but i really want to get some research done to put on my resume. even though by then i ll know if i ll get into berkeley.

i have it in my mind that if i do get in, the moment i know, i would call my parents even if its 3am in the morning. i would send tons of internet sms and try to get through to the house phone. i know they ll forgive me for waking them up in the middle of night. i have a whole picture of whats gonna happen or what im gonna do if i get in. but i dont have anything in mind or what im going to do if i dont. im scared. seriously. i dont have a picture. no idea. maybe i shoudl be thinking. i know im gonna crash when the day is getting nearer. but for now, im alright. just a teeny bit worried and scared but enough to keep me focused on studies.

alright i think im done blogging for the night. im surpised janet's still up but i guess she s still working on her gift that s why. though i have to admit, i have been sleeping earlier than her these weeks. or at least i think so. i like waking up in the middle of the night and looking at the time and know its still early like at 1am and being able to go back to sleep.

shoudl wake up early tomorrow and start cracking my brain.