Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind.
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happy early halloween Friday, October 31, 2008 this week has been so hectic i cant believe i survived it. still, im glad all the same. supposed to have anthropology test on tues but class was freaking cancelled! i didnt have to go to school at all if i knew earlier. good thing janet was home so she could drive me home and i didnt have to walk. and i studied so hard too. wed had sociology test. stayed up really late again to study. in fact, studied till 1am. i dont know why i was freaking out so badly when i did really well on the first test and his tests arent really that hard. its multiple choice too. but that was what killed my next day. literally jumped out of bed at 8.20am when we usually leave the house at 8.30. havent jumped out of bed in a really really long time. i think since i came here, i never overslept for school. so that came as a surprise. just showed how much i was studying. waha. but yes, i was really tired from all that late night studying on monday too. no wonnder i hate having tests. why do they have to be on consecutive days? today had anthro and chem lab test. didnt turn out too bad for chem. good thing i went for help at mesa. clarified some stuff. hopefully it worked out. saw dr case on the way out. have to remember to get stuff ffrom her tomorrow. really irrelevant stuff here so please dont bother reading i feel weird inside. mayeb its from the lack of sleep. i ve been looking at cupcakes for the longest time and have fallen in love with the hello cupcake book. so the other day, joyce came home with the book from costco. she was like look at it, its so cute. yes i know. i looked at it a week before u did. she's been acting really conspicuosly these days or i should say showing off? so i was totaly uninterested. i get it youre the oldest. its so funny how we have so much in common. every single time i think or like something, i dont say it and the next few minutes or days depending on what it is, she says the same things. yes like the cupcake. especially when her guy's around, she acts all big bossy and its annoying me? so youre going to japan next week. she was soo whiny she couldnt get her days off on monday. i know im super mean here. but please, urgh. im recently getting very annoyed with her thats all i can say. i really want to get my own life with my family again. i miss having that freedom, the feeling that i can do whatever i want without thinking about anyone else. i really want my dog right now. i want to go shopping. fine i want ot be alone. and i was talking to a 33 year old in school today who thinks she's so great. i really dont care what u have to say. so youre twice my age. she thinks shes right all the time and all the power is in her hands. so we were talking in the cafeteria. and i answered her on the subejct which was on the same line. she was like, so do u know what i wanted to say next. geez fine handle the conversation if u want to. cant a person say something that u dnt want to hear or is not answering ur freaking question. and so i went to sit at the table behind her since i didnt want to stop her from doing her studying. and she turns around saying, oh if u were studying u could sit with me. like wth. i m phrasing this really badly but i dont care. why do i have to pronouce genevieve the french way?! i think this is totally from the lack of sleep. ramblings. i want to go to bed but i know i cant with so mnay things on my mind. there s so much to complete by next week. compulsiveness and teddy's letter Sunday, October 26, 2008 i think i spend way too much on food and unnecessary stuff. plus im a compulsive buyer. and i'm soo attracted to stationaries. i know its weird. i know i can spend a whole day at michaels and end up buying their whole store. went to the samaritan house at san mateo today to donate backpacks. its make a difference day! met up in school and its such a weird feeling. like its sooo quiet and empty. everything's close too. like its 6pm on a weekday. carpoled there. basically it was just carrying boxes and counting them once we got there. lol. got dropped off at tanforan and here's where i spent big bucks again. went to tutti fruitti to have my yoghurt icecream. its soo good. got lots of diff flavors. mango, green tea, peach, apple, strawberry and rainbowed colored sprinkles. it looked so pretty. went to mrs fields next and got 20 cookies for 5 bucks. heh heh. chewy cookies are heavenly. too bad it was straight out of the oven. it would have been so much better otherwise but still, it hit the right spot in my belly (which is getting bigger by the day). went to target. got a gift, snacks, paper cutter, and filler paper. i didnt even get what i need. lol. other than the gift. lol. i actuallly have a shopping list but obviously didnt use it. wanted to go home but i didnt bring my bus schedule so walked there to find out there was another 35 mins till the next bus so went back in and got cinnamon sticks from auntie anne's. see im a food a holic. =D sat at the food court munching, resisting the attempt to get starbucks which was 10 steps away. success. haha. already spent 40 bucks so yeah, i was guilty? went home. i dont know why i got off at the gas station so i had to walk all the way up. survived the killer hill thankfully. got home. did physics while going on facebook thousands of times and going around the internet. spent like 2 hours when i really should have only spent 1 maybe 1.5. this is off track: i just received a letter from my teddy. so glad to hear from her. im beyond over the moon if this even makes sense. i ve been waiting so long for her letter. she wrote it on 2 october and i only got it now (october 25). it took 23 days/3 weeks!! to singapore, its only 1 week. whats with the difference?! i thought i didnt put enough stamps or it got lost or something. thank goodness it wasnt. i teared while reading her letter. soo many memories. can you imagine, 10 years??!! she did soo much for me. she sent me a pic of her too with her family. its just so nice? i cant find another word. i really cant wait till the day i get to see her again. i think if my parents ask where i want to go next time, i ll say philippines. screw paris or japan or gold coast. (okay, i m saying that can wait). i want to see my teddy! * stomps around like a spoilt child* she cares so much bout me, studies and all. every single time i talk to her directly or indirectly, she ll say be good. haha. so cute. and she still has a vegenance against my doggy. yes she got bitten by him before and according to this letter, she said her head almost got hit by a tree since doogy saw another dog and became aggressive. i know whats it like. you have to pull so had, ur feet cant stay on the ground and its like youre pulling to the point of strangling him. but i know she still loves him. we used to go to the playground at ridgewood but before that, we get red bean/cocnut iceream and we give him the last bit on the stick before we head home. of course, tht was ages ago. i think i should stop reminiscing for now. i still have tons to do on my checklist for today. the house is going to be chaotic soon since jon is getting all his friends over. peace out. let me dream of teddy tonight please. >< heroes Tuesday, October 21, 2008 i think i actually stopped breathing while watching heroes. lol. love that show to bits! thats why i look forward to monday NIGHTS! and now, goodnight.=D fall Monday, October 20, 2008 i think fall is really here now cos im shivering in my room when the windows and door are closed. today was totally unproductive and i feel sooo guilty now. i think im gonna make sure i come home early tomorrow and hopefully find some motivation to study some horrible physics and chemistry. i totally could have gone to the pumpkin fest and try to eat some pumpkin. i dont think i ever ate pumpkin since i was in singapore american school where i got to bring home my own pumpkin. pumpkin pie, pumpkin icecream, pumpkin falvored coffee and what not. theres all these advertisement out there for pumpkin delicacies which i really dont find appealing. (my hair on my arm is really standing and im too lazy to get up to get my blanky or jacket) im totally bummed. i think i might even sleep early. and its only 9pm. what a day. i dont know why im paragraphing when theres only one sentence. and this is super random. and here's to making it more random:  that was after his birthday dinner. lol. he looks sooo evil like he's ready to kill. muahhaa. perfect for halloween. =D good night peeps. cupcakes? i dont want to do any work!! everyone's out again, well except for jon who's sleeping. i m supposed to declare today to be chem and physics day but till now, its still staring at the internet, finding food day. =D how fun. i shall make sure i start after i click the x button. i will not waste my day since if it wasnt for school, i would be out at the pumpkin festical with the kids and jan and joyce. though not as interested as i thought i would be, it will be at least a day out for me. ( i do realize i m typing extremely weird sentences) every blog i go to, its on baking and cupcakes. its making me wanna bake too. the cupcake books/recipes are soo adorable. hello, cupcake! but yeah, not like im gonna be usign the oven until maybe christmas if they decide to make sugar cookies again. scrap the thought. cant wait till dec. or maybe not cos theres so much to do before that. im just here typind crap because im procrastinating again. =D now, whats for lunch? pumpkins anyone? or marie calenders. or clam chowder, or noodles? i want my food! buffets Sunday, October 19, 2008 i dont know if its the stress or the sleepiness but something is making me very lethargic and hungry all the time. i ve been seriously eating the whole day. as much as i want to stuff myself now again, i do feel very unhealthy because im not stuffing fruits and vegetables down my throat but total junk! my menu for today: strawberry instant oatmeal, banana, cream puff (breakfast), shrimp wanton instant soup, progresso chicken soup, gum, chocolates (lunch), rice with fish, vegs and pork ribs, chocolate, chips, cookie (dinner) and probably something else later for supper. something is wrong with me! maybe its from not eating proper lunch in school. because of stupid meetings that sometimes get cancelled in the end or classes that let you go off early after a 2 hour waiting time plus having the instructor read u the entire manual that makes me go insane. i swear ive been having one dollar cup noodles and one dollar chips for lunch at least twice or even thrice a week. i need better food if not at least let me go home early to have better microwavable food. im so grumpy and unhealthy now. just watched a tv programme onlin from mobtv thats about buffets and omg, the last one that they showed just made me more hungry and craving for buffets now. its called melt-the world cafe at the mandarin hotel. someone save me! i was drooling watching it! i havent had such food in soo long. we hardly go out to eat now because people are so busy with their after work/school life. to say the least, we hardly talk or see each other now. i havent been home early for a few weeks now and wont be either for the next few weeks either so its go home, shower, eat, do homework/study, sleep. we're all stuck in our own rooms. of course, other than the showering part. ><> okay, so school's been a bore. its just test after test, meetings after meetings that i can hardly keep up. and thats because of my procrastination. i know i cant study in school. i just get sooo distracted by people i can sit and stare out of the window until its time to go to class. thats why i need to spend more time at home! im still aiming to finish studying my anthropology tonight before i sleeep even if it means sleeping at 3am. its sat anyways.... at least i wont feel so bad that i sat in front of the computer watching videos and going on facebook a million times a day to poke people for 3 hours before i start studying again. so the one thing thats been bothering me the most is scholarships. there's just soo many that i want to apply for but i really have trouble writing their essays. hands down, i dont know anything about myself. neither have i done anything really significant. have you? how am i suppose to answer a question thats asks: describe any paid positions that youve done over the last 5 years blah blah blah. i mean i dont even have to read on. the only thing i can write is: i am a princess and i ve been spoilt and ive earned 0 dollars my entire life. =D with a smiley face at the end. sigh. conclusion: i need to learn to drive, get a car and find a freaking job. on top of that, not any old job, a job thats realted to my major mind you. this cant get any worse. i dotn think ive blogged bout my vegas trip yet. it was crazy. ( actually now i think i kinda blogged about it already) but still for the fun of it and more procrastination, it was an insane trip.
random peektures!  at the airport... where we walked to-bellagio. gorgeous but it almost killed my feet haha. loser slots. such a lie i got the 2 bears. jack gave me the dog and we named it puppy.  i think i should head off to study otherwise it ll be morning by the time i decide to finish my notes. halloween is here soon and i want tons and tons of candy. stomachs grumbling again. i need foood. or maybe not. i miss mom and dad. i think dad's overworking himself way too much. all thanks to his promotion. he's been traveling non stop for the past few months-india, germany, taiwan and who knows where else. its like flying off every week, styaing home for a couple of days and flying off again. i feel sad for mom whos always home alone stuck with my dog as she complains. but....... that might change soon. mom told me a few days ago that dad considered letting me go back to singapore over the winter break since i have a month off. BUT, i was thinking of going for an internship at davis whcih is 2 weeks in jan. so i dotn know. i really do want to do both. or sort of. davis-the problem is transportation. they dont offer us a place to stay so we basically have to travel there by ourselves everyday. they give us 600 bucks but it s not going to be enough for me. no way are they going to drive me to sacramento and back everyday. its freaking far. i dont think 2 hours is even right both ways. so i really dotn know. due date for application is coming up soon too. if i dotn go to that then i MAY go back. dad's afraid im gonna get bored. hee. but im not getting my hopes up and neither should you. i mean it ll be great but i already went back in the summer plus its gonna cost too. and i wonder what the family will say if they know i m gonna go back. waste of money blah blah blah. so for the time being, i would say blank. we ll wait and see. dad's coming in dec for a meeting-see hes gonna travel again but yay! i get to see him but boo! exams will be round the corner. why cant things be simple. alright i think ive procrastinated enough and this has been a bloody long post in a while. i m still craving to eat so fedex somethign over please. thanks. happy birthday roger Wednesday, October 15, 2008 HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROGER DOGGY! i cant believe he's already 7. has it really been 7 years since we got him? wow. he became my lil doggy when he was 4 months! all i have to say, time flies and he's grown into a big lazy adorable doggy. i miss him so much now. he might be unfriendly to others but he never failed to let me lie on his big fat round tummy. and even if its sooo annoying that he keeps getting stuff out of my room or off the table, i ll still always love him like he's a lil puppy. i want a doggy hug now.      i dont like my blogskin?
my hectic life Saturday, October 04, 2008 this week has been so hectic and the fact that next week is not getting any better does not make me a happy dog. i seriously cant wait for this semester to be over. no joke at all. i'm really glad for the vegas trip next week. a little time off. hopefully i dont start thinking about application stuffs again. 2 days. thats all i need. so this week was just exhausting. i spent an average of 9 hours in school everyday. i know thats nothing compared to what went on in singapore but still, i m pretty much half dead. monday was the best only because heroes was on. masi oka! had chemistry seminar on tuesday. got home at 5ish. started on chem reports. something was going on through my mind again. cant remember what but i couldnt sleep till like 12? wednesday had physics lab and hung out at mesa after till 6 30. got home and tried out the chem reports again which i had no idea how to do. missed private practice. slept at 11ish. thursday was horrid. had chem lab till 6.30. so much waiting time. got home and rushed out chem reports which was due today. didnt know how to do them still. how do u separate organic compounds. which goes to the aqueous layer or ether layer?? grrr. i hate chem! missed grey's anatomy too. decided to skip spinning today to try and get help but mesa wasnt open yet. wrote crap. im pretty sure its gonna be the lowest score i ll get which is sad. got through classes. stressed out a lil again during honors seminar since it was talking about UC appplications. i dont know why this is making me go insane so badly. waited for the bus and went to tanforan to shop. i didnt want to go home just yet. did some compulsive shopping. bought 2 tops, almost bought the black pumps i was longing for for a long time but resisted the urge, went to target. i got this pack of crayola markers and its the coolest thing ever. expensive though but i did say it was compulsive shopping. it was a pack of 16 markers and they're attached to another"marker" push a button and the colors mix temporarily so u kinda get 2 colors in one stroke. so in total u get 256 combinations according to them. im a loser for stationary. got some other random stuff too. had jollibee for lunch and the best yoghurt dessert. u get a cup and choose ur own yoghurt. lots of flavors to choose from. add whatever toppings u want and they calculate the cost by its weight. i got mango and green tea. it was delicious! too bad i was rushing for the bus and that driver didnt allow me to bring it up so i had to dump it. good thing there wasnt much left and i was kinda full too so i was like whatever. i ll definitely go there again. it would even make a good lunch. healthy light and good and cheap too considering the amount. plus u can have as many flavors as u like considering u dont mind having some weird taste if u mix too many flavors in there. haha. forgot to take a pic. went home showered and sat in front of the com till now watching videos. caught top model, survivor and private practice. couldnt watch grey's. boohoo. i m thinking of doing something but i dont know how much it would be appreciated. still thinking bout it. so im gonna have my physics and chem test on wed next week and im not prepared at all. i need nov 30 to come now. i'm into taylor swifts songs now. love story keeps replaying in my player. i should keep my mind away from school at least until tomorrow morning. good night! wow its only 8.30pm. time passes so slowly when u dont need it to. but it runs when u've got so much to accomplish. like yesterday, i only had dinner showered and did my reports started at 7 and by the time i was going to sleep, it was 11.30pm. geez. |
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