Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind.
|
so much homework Monday, September 29, 2008 theres so much homework and studying to do its not even funny. i just spent my whole morning doing a sociology journal which is just 1.5 pages and that should have only taken me 1 hour at the most. duhh i wasnt concentrating as much as i should. and now im half heartedly doing my chem prelab. is there a drink that can make you focus like how coffee is supposed to keep u awake. that should be nice. =D back to the mundane life of homework. cant believe im going ahead with next semester. okay not like i have much of a choice. here's something that just made me grinned. .jpg)  say hi to the dog who tried to act cute and handsome. okay, he didnt act, it's his real self. =D busy and tired Saturday, September 27, 2008 (dont bother to read again unless you're so bored that you'll run 100 rounds around the f1 racing track. i specified this time =D ) been soooooo busy lately i hardly have time to rest. and its not going to get any better any time soon which makes me even more stressed out. i wonder how next semester is going to be. 19 units already nearly killed me. talk about 23. i already figured out my spring schedule and it doesnt look good. i ve already been called crazy and insane by loads of people. i think i should just drop dead. i dont mean literally though but i cant think of how that might work otherwise. anyways, see how my brain is not currently functioning now. to think im still thinking about the ivy league schools. cornell university just sent me an email today and it got me thinking. people are asking me which schools im applying to and im surprised that theyre surprised if u get what i mean. when i said i dont want to apply to ucla, they ask why in a super surprised tone. i dont wanna move again but if its close to disneyland, i ll consider again. okay i should cut the crap. still, i am wondering why im only applying to public schools in the bay area. there's just so many other choices out there and i could always get financial aid. unless they decide to be stupid and not let me qualify. i dont know. this whole ordeal is just killing me. i still have to settle my UCD tag. they're scaring me. duh i dont have any transcripts from JJ. i just wrote it down in case they ask why i have a break in between schools. and the deadline is next tues. hope it gets settled by then. should go ask and clarify again on monday. i need a more convenient way of getting to and from school. that way i can stay as long as i want and go home whenever i want without having to worry about missing my bus and waiting another hour. i need to get all this application stuf done with. yeah right, in 2 months. so this week has been hectic. 2 social science tests just mean tons of reading to do and not knowing what to expect since they're so new. it turned out pretty okay though. hopefully im not just making fairy tale like stories. we'll see on monday. that reminds me, i have to skip a class on wed to go to transfer day. ask lots and lots of questions. grrr. back to the topic of horror. sorry cant seem to get away from that now. its my hot topic for now and its controlling my life. not liking it a single bit. where was i? yes. the week of happy and sads. happy cos it was showing HEROES! and GREY'S ANATOMY. these shows are what keeps my week going. heroes is just so awesome. i 'm so glad they made me so hooked on it. i cant believe i never even heard of it in singapore. this season just makes me wanna continue watching more. .2 hours premiere wasnt enough! and grey's, geez its getting crazier. everything's changing. and i cant wait to see the next episode now. why do they have to skip next week?????!! that's not cool after showing the next episode sneakpeak. alright i ve got the sudden urge to study. weird aint it. but i should make use of it even though its already 9.30pm. very rare that this happens. =DDDD maybe im still stressed out???????
i think i finally had it Wednesday, September 17, 2008 (please skip this entire post unless youre bored to the point where you'll run 10 rounds to entertain yourself =D ) so these past 2 nights have been sleepless. its just soooo horrible. you know how you wake up and then you ask yourself if you actualy did sleep. weird i know. but yeah, been thinking about my majors/future lately. its all UC davis fault. if not for the tag form, i wouldt be worrying till 2 months later. lol. so after class, i went to the transfer/career center and reseaerch did pay off. i was checking out the eureka site to see what occupations there were and was looking at the pay too. duhh. and ifinally found it :research veterinarian. EUREKA! i know surgery's just not cut out for me but i like animals so research it shall be. =D Research Veterinarians work in bacteriology, where they study micro-organisms which cause diseases in animals; epidemiology, where they study diseases transmittable from animals to humans; parasitology, where they study parasites that attack domestic animals and poultry; pharmacology, where they study drugs related to veterinary medicine, and laboratory animal care. So cool. and it doesnt matter what major you choose to be able to get into Davis's vet school too. so i was pretty much worrying about nothing. the person was like, you can even take music as ur major and get in. but of course, your chances wont be as high. lame. i guess even if i get into berkeley and i must, i ll still transfer to vet school in davis for grad school. wheeee. i think im kinda excited now but maybe its temporary. you need minimum 180 hours of experience working with animals. and on their stats page: on average, people have 3000 hours. insane or what. but i wouldnt mind. =D i have 3 hours to spare now before the meeting starts. what to do. and everyone else is in class. boo. it's 3 am and mom isnt sleeping yet. dad's in india again. geez. his job does sound like fun.
hong kong 2008 summer trip Monday, September 15, 2008 (haha. i have no idea why the points are copyrighted. lol. so weird. it was suppose ot be hearts. blogger doesnt recognize it) Sadly I can’t remember what happened in chronological order due to my STM as some of you may know. What a pity but it’s alright. Should have written it down somewhere while I still remembered but due to my busy and lazy schedule, it obviously didn’t happen. So here goes a summary listing the most significant events that made my 3 weeks so awesome. © Touched down and was delighted to see mom after 7 months? She and dad came in January and we went to vegas so really, it wasn’t such a long time considering we’re so far away. © Took E42 home. Its funny how they took that bus 3 times in total. They arrived in HK the same day just much earlier so they took the bus home and took it again to meet me and again to get home. But im truly touched. Its like a one hour long bus ride too. But other than the train, that’s really the only option. Taxis are out of the question. © Got home to put down my stuff and went for dinner. It was kind of late by then and they were obviously hungry. I on the other hand still didn’t have any appetite. In fact, it was extremely bad. Contemplated on which place to go. Settled for this Chinese/ western place in the end. I wasn’t used to seeing prices set at 100+ bucks so when I first saw the menu, I was like can we go somewhere else? Lol. Of course, I forget about the conversion. Plus, I wasn’t hungry so I didn’t want to go somewhere fancy. Still went there in the end since bro insisted. Had a set thingy and shared with mom. Rather, mom shared with me. I really didn’t feel like eating that I had pasta the size of my palm and pieces of meat which I still couldn’t finish. How pathetic. © Went home, showered. Our home just seems so small now. Seriously, like the bath tub was for babies. We really outgrew the place. Played guitar hero on my bro’s DS- yes he got one with mom’s points from singtel? Slept but woke up at around 3 or 4 due to jetlag. Was so hard to get back to sleep. It was a torture! Eventually fell back to sleep at around 6? © Woke up at 12 and went to mong kok for dim sum with grandmother and aunts. Appetite wasn’t back yet sadly. Just ate a lil which was such a pity. They were commenting on how similar mom and I look. And we were both wearing purple too. Haha! Walked around mong kok after. Bought my stitch puzzle and snacks plus swimming costume. Cant remember events that followed that day. © Had dim sum again with grandma on another day and cousin followed us too this time. As usual, walked around mong kok. Bought a bag from roxy. Had mango dessert. Yums. © Met jonathan in the evening at tsim sha tsui. He was there for oversea studies so we decided to meet up with him. Went Sheraton for buffet dinner. Was superb!! One of my top hotels for buffets. Comparable with Shangri la in Singapore. Especially the desserts. Was so full after. Too bad, my stomach still wasn’t quite in the mood. Should have taken more pictures. Walked around so much my feet actually hurt. All the way, I’ve been wearing my Birkenstocks and it wasn’t the greatest idea. © Bro went out to learn wakeboarding with my dad’s friend and went over to aunt’s place so it was just me and mom. Didn’t want to leave mom alone so I didn’t join them. Went shopping in shatin. (I think. My days are all mixed up). Looked around for jackets. They were expensive though. Got goggles in the end after all that walking. Out for dinner with my dad’s side aunt and uncles. Had steamboat somewhere near her place. Food was just mediocre. Didn’t eat much. Caught up a bit but things are really just the same. Was sleepy too so didn’t talk much. © Came back from Macau (that trip will come in another post). Bro basically spent most of his time at aunt’s place. Had dim sum again with grandmother. So after that at mong kok, mom bought me a ring from chow tai fook. She did mention it a couple of times that she wanted to get me one but I thought it was expensive so everytime she asked if I wanted to go in to see, I said no. I gave in eventually and that sales person was seriously pushing us to get one. Saw a couple of nice ones but eventually got a square shaped one. Mom wasn’t even looking at the price tag! Geez. What has become of her? But yeah, she said it was for my 18th birthday. So Sweeeeet. Was super happy after. © We were leaving for the airport that same night too. Waited for bro to get back and took the bus again. Had some of my favorite roadside curry fish balls. So that basically was all that I did in HK. Wasn’t much since we only spent a couple of days there. Went over to Macau that’s why. Still had lots of fun and good food though. Im so thinking about the buffet now. Sigh…. Compared to Singapore, this is only 1.5 pages long in Microsoft word!  our favourite mango desserts. i think we had it 3 times there? heavenly... desserts at sheraton buffet. the berries were totally sour though. but overall, superb! steamboat dinner with dad's side. well almost. dad was in germany at that time so he's missing.  my beloved ring! i cant wait for next summmmer!
singapore and bangkok 2008 trip Sunday, September 14, 2008 Singapore trip 2008 (all these were supposed to be in point form but i couldnt copy it over) you really dont have to read it. =) August 1 Arrived Singapore from Hong Kong past midnight Got home and unpacked and showered Played with doggy for a while. He still remembers me. I know cos he didn’t bite. Haha. Went to sleep in my comfy childhood bed with all my stuffed toys. Sweeeeet dreams. August 2 Got up really late around 12. Best sleep I would say? Went to ghim moh for brunch, fishball noodles and green tea=superb breakfast Took 111 to orchard to shop. Got a jacket from billabong and sunglasses. Evil lil brother actually did more shopping than I did. He got like clothes, a ring, cuffs and a crumpler bag. He’s even more materialistic than I am. Seriously. Had old chang kee on the way to Taka. Curry puff, squid on a stick= sinful but who cares Ate more at the foodcourt. We’re such pigs. I have to say we simply can’t forget about local delicacies. Didn’t have much time. Took the train to the airport to fetch dad. He came back from Germany. I really want to have his job. Get to travel around to different places all the time. Brought back lots of chocolates for us. Got home, he unpacked, settled down and went to Long beach for seafood dinner. Black pepper crab, fish and vegetables= heaven Got home, watched TV and slept. August 3 Went ghim moh for brunch. So funny all of us had milk tea. Dad suggested we go to the Singapore flyer next. Roughly thirty bucks each? Was alright. I think I preferred the London eye though even if this is higher. I don’t know. Maybe I just like London a whole lot. My favorite destination ever. I think? Took lots of photos. Should have gone up slightly earlier then we would be the only ones in the capsule. There was another family in there and they were kind of a waste. Haha. They were sitting for more than half the trip! At least we had someone to take photos for us. Went Queensway hawker to eat again. We re such a family of pigs. We eat as we go. Went Dawson supermarket for grocery and snacks. Went home and slacked for a bit Went to crystal jade Xiao long bao for steamboat. Was alright. Not a huge variety but acceptable. Again, my appetite still want that great so I only felt like eating so much. Home sweet home after. August 4 Woke at around 12 again. Dad went to work. Mom had work too. Messaged lyefong to see if she was free after school and she was. Met her at clementi and went to Holland village for Swenson’s. Had my beloved sambal fish plus starbucks after. I have to say I’m not use to seeing the prices in Singapore anymore. Even though the prices are about the same in US and Singapore, seeing it being 3 bucks here is better than 5bucks. I was like wow, that’s pretty expensive but after doing the conversion, it’s actually the same. Haha. Went home and played guitar hero. Wasn’t fun since we were using the controllers. Bro just got the game since he said it was cheap. How lame. Slacked around. She left around 7 ish. Sent her to bus stop and went home for dinner. Finally some good home cooked dishes. Continued slacking. Watched more TV. Played with bro’s DS till late. Think it was 3am? Mom asked if I wanted one too. Haha. But I rejected her kind offer. I already feel bad for not using my psp that often. I’m very tempted to update my psp and change it to original games. It just takes forever to download and those discs that I have keeps freezing when I load them. Annoying! August 5 (I dont know why these are in point forms) o Went ghim moh for brunch again with mom and bro. fish noodles and milk tea. (I miss them now. Nothing satisfies my craving for chili padi or noodles in soup. It’s like they only have instant noodles here or pasta. How boring…) o Left for orchard again to shop. Bought 2 tops since we had vouchers anyway. I wonder where my mom gets all her vouchers. It was from united colors of Benetton and so their abbreviation is UCB. Heh. I got it only cos it stands for UC Berkeley. I’m obsessed. The family actually did think it was Berkeley since the actual name is faint. Sweet. o Went to cold storage at isetan. Love that supermarket only because it’s mostly Japanese stuff. Mom and bro bought stuff for their dinner and home we went. o Left home again shortly after to meet Jaime, sq, crystal and shirlyn at JJC. Something was telling me to wear uniform but I was in a hurry so I didn’t change and couldn’t get in in the end. Boo. Visiting hours was over at 6 when I reached. Plus I got off 2 stops earlier. I mistook the 7 11. bleah. Walking wasn’t too bad anyways. o Passed them chocolates. Pretty awkward but it was okay. At least I got to see them after a year. o Went JEC for dinner at Macs. Met huihui and huiping there too. Took a couple of pics, caught up a bit. They had to study for prelims so we left kind of early. o Dropped by at popular to get some supplies. Haha. I still prefer my old stuff/brands of stationeries. Certain things just can’t change. o Got home had soup and slacked more. August 6 o Got up and met nemo at clementi. Bubble tea! It’s been a long time. Still loving it. Used to get it all the time after school. I hardly get it here now since I don’t drive. It’s like I have it once every 3 months. Perhaps longer. o Went popular to get pens and colored paper. Went home and guitar heroed plus crashed. o Nemo left at 3ish for CIP stuff. Mom came home and fried some junk for us. Started packed since we were leaving for Bangkok in the evening. o Disaster struck! o Our flight was at 8.30pm but dad didn’t come home till like 7.30. He had lots of stuff to finish doing and I guess there was traffic on the way home too. o Rushed out of the house called cab and we got stuck in traffic again. o Reached airport at like 8.10. Quickly got the people to check in our baggage. Good thing one of them was still around. Ran to the gate. Exhilarating! Haha. Won’t try it again though. o Arrived Bangkok and took cab to Sheraton hotel. Funny how their official airport cabs are more expensive than if you take one by the road. They’re there so people wont get cheated but instead they re the ones who overprice their fares. o Settled down and went to look for a place to eat. Walked down this whole stretch of stalls. Interesting I say. There were tons of people selling clothes, food which I really wouldn’t try, fried insects and such. There was even an elephant! o Settled in a café and was served by a transgender. Hah. I mean no harm. Had pak Thai, prawn cake and vegetables. Was okay. Wasn’t quite in the mood to eat. o Went back to hotel to shower. Was past midnight after so HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! Haha. Gave her her card and cup. Sweet dreams after all that rushing around. Haha August 7 Got up late again. Took subway to some big mall. Had brunch at some steamboat + sushi place. Interesting. Lots of fresh seafood. Walked to the mall but didn’t buy anything there other than food. They had 2 whole levels devoted to food and we went crazy. Had donuts and pepper lunch. Yum. Even contemplated going to kfc but of course we didn’t. Bro got some ice thingy too. Went to supermarket after to get more snacks. They have really cheap stuff. Went to a nearby seafood restaurant near our hotel. The food was awesome! Oysters were the best. Super fresh. But the tom yum soup was crazy hot. I couldn’t finish a bowl. Even their kang Kong was hot too. I was almost suffering. Haha. Black pepper crab was alright. Went back to the hotel. Too much walking and eating. Lol. August 8 Went to Robinsons a couple of blocks down. Had food from some café that is supposed to be popular in Thailand. Food was just alright. Walked around and we went to the supermarket again. We love supermarkets! Went to Carrefour next. Lol. Dad said we weren’t really in Bangkok since we just shopped in malls that Singapore has. Not like we went to any tourist attraction. I guess we were just lazy. Got more snacks. Bought lingerie too. Haha. It s like half the price that of Singapore and it was branded too. Triump? Had KFC after. Wasn’t that good. I think I like Popeye’s or jollibee more now. Went back to the hotel. Watch Olympics opening ceremony. Dinner at the same seafood place. Oysters again! We wouldn’t miss it for the world. Haha. Had lots of fried food though. So we watched until the teams started coming out and we didn’t want to miss Singapore but didn’t want to sit there until it was over so we rushed back to the hotel. Funny. Opening wasn’t that great though. At least that’s what I thought. Can’t deny that some parts were cool. All the drummers in sync. Sleepy time. August 9 Got up and had breakfast before checking out. Took cab and it was so much cheaper than when we came. That’s how I know the airport cheated us. How lame. Got home and doggy popped. Made the washing area a mess. But he’s a dog stuck at home so we can’t blame him. Unpacked, settled down and watched national parade. It paled in comparison to the Olympics obviously so I got really bored. It’s always the same stuff and performances. Sent out smses for BBQ too. Dad went out for dinner with his client I think so me and mom and bro went to crystal jade. Had black pepper udon and some dim sum. Went cold storage next to get food for bbq. August 10 Dad had to work that day. Went Holland village (that s the most frequented place for me seriously read on to confirm. Lol. ) for lunch at fosters. Food was okay acceptable. Was in a rush to get home to meet Marlene so I left first while they went to get something. Went swimming until Jaime and sq came. Fun! Went up to shower and watch part of New York minute. Nemo, shining and Kelly came shortly after and went down to eat. Talked and caught up quite a bit. Finding out where certain people are. Haha. Slacked at home after. Took pictures. I think I bored them. Haha. They left at around 11? They had the hardest time trying to give directions to my place. Haha. Funny. Its ulu pandan get it. Ulu. Cleaned up and brought doggy downstairs. I miss bringing my doggy for walks though he’s pretty unsociable and barks at other dogs. He has quite the strength too. Always turn away when I see other dogs. August 11 Met carissa and xiuying at Holland village (see Holland v again). Had NYDC. Its been such a long time since we last met. Glad we got to catch up. Nothing changed really. How many years has it been now? 6/7 years? Slacked at home. Doodled and took pictures while eating snacks. Time passed really fast though. They left around 7 ish and I went out to meet mom and bro at Conrad hotel. We had buffet. Food was just alright though I had my long craving of laksa and bak kut teh. Dad joined us after his own dinner with his colleagues. Drove us home. Bro was also suppose to go back today but since he was using standby tickets and the flight was full, he couldn’t get on. Mom had to buy tickets for him in the end. And mom had to trick me in the morning that they woke up late and missed the flight. Mom will always be mom. August 12 Bro went back in the morning. Spent whole day with mom for once. Went to Camden for dental. The dentist was mean. Bleah. Went out to orchard again to shop. Got a pair of converse shoes. Mom was bugging me to actually get shoes. Wow. Went to the supermarket at isetan again to get groceries for dinner. Got more Japanese snacks. Looked around for my Japanese milk tea too. Was expensive. 7 bucks for 1.5 litres. And I didn’t even finish it since I had to leave and I wasn’t home al the time. Went to mom’s office after to bake cupcakes and a cake. Turned out okay. At least they weren’t burnt. She has an ant problem in her kitchen. Haha. Went downstairs to the Ridgewood shops. Saw dr chan my family doctor. She has really really effective medicines. Plus she’s really nice too. Hope they don’t move. Those shops are like slowly going out of business. Oh wells. Times change. Went home and I watched my Chinese drama while mom cooked. Was simply delicious. Fishcake, steamed egg, salty wings, spinach, minced pork patty with cuttlefish. I’m all so hungry now. Brought doggy down after feeding him. I miss my puppy. Going to make a scrapbook of him once I get a hold of all his pictures. August 13 Got up at 9am since Felicia was coming. Finally got to meet her. Its been ages. Slacked and talked. She managed to touch doggy without getting bitten. She’s the first. Haha. Went to Holland village for sushi tei. (see Holland village again). Had tempura udon and chiwanmushi. Yes the sashimi salad was great! Worth it too. She had to leave for school after. Went up to mom’s office to surprise her but the way I pressed the bell downstairs gave it away since im the only one who presses it hundreds of times. Checked ticket confirmation but I was still on standby for Friday. Sad. Bought haato ice-cream downstairs. Milk tea flavored. I m in love with milk tea! Went home to get some stuff and left for national library to return my bro’s books. Went bras basah too to get colored pens. Lol. Then to bugis to try and find my little miss shirt but couldn’t find them, in the end just went to hallmark to get Joyce’s present. Didn’t know what other stuff to get for the rest. Took the bus to long beach again for seafood. We got off a stop early and almost got lost in that maze of restaurants. Lol. Pretty bad service this time. We ordered black pepper crab but they gave us white pepper. It wasn’t that bad though. Quite alright. A change once in a while wont hurt. Ordered fried mantou but they gave us steamed. Of course we asked for a change since steam bread in curry isn’t good. Haha. Their chili crab wasn’t as good as jumbo’s at ECP. Got home and reluctantly packed. Super rushed and dad complaining about my stuff wasn’t helping. There was tons of stuff to pack. Was afraid I couldn’t manage to smuggle my snacks in too. That was the most horrible part of my trip. The packing and leaving. Slept at 2am after talking to nemo and I had to get up at 4.30am! Haha. August 14 Dad drove us to the airport. Super saddening. Tried really really hard to holdback tears. Couldn’t help it once I was inside away from them. That’s why I didn’t look around for souvenirs too. Slept on the plane and missed my meal. First time I had no idea they were serving food already. That’s how sleepy I was. Slept again till I arrived at Hong Kong. Security check was insane. They checked my bag cos they saw a black image. Duh they found nothing. Messed up my stuff only. Phone card failed on me. Tried so many ways to try to call parents. Annoying. Finally sent her a free msg to top up my card. Talked for a while and once dad called, it got cut off halfway since it was out of cash again. Money eater. Tried the pay phone. Put in five bucks and talked for like 15 seconds? Lol. Lame Got on flight to SF. Slept and missed my meal again! I was hungry too! Had cup noodles so it wasn’t too bad. I actually wrote all these on the plane after my noodles. Drinking coffee might have helped stopped me from sleeping. I wrote all these on the plane at 8.04pm Singapore time. 14 august. So my whole trip might have seemed simple and lots of slacking around but to me, it was awesome. Couldn’t have asked for more. That’s why I felt so miserable once I came back to “normal” life. Home is the best place ever. No doubt about it. There’s no restrictions or self consciousness, get to call anyone to go over to my place whenever I want, sleep anytime I want without having to worry about them complaining, or do anything without having to worry about what others might think. Even taking food out of the fridge is weird for me. Get the idea…. I miss those 3 weeks. Update about Hong Kong next time. The week before all of this. I typed this on Microsoft word and its 5 pages! Best essay ever! Love my family to bits. Too bad they’re in Macau now leaving my puppy behind and I haven’t talked to them for 3 days? I actually wonder how much their phone bill is. Hah! just some photos from bangkok and singapore. theres definitely more but too lazy to upload. most pics with parents too and they dont want to send it to me.. if only we can select a couple of pictures at a time.....  bangkok's biggest mall donuts! i took the chocolate cremed one yums pepper lunch was good as a snack. muahaha. mom's birthday flowers and cake. i wonder when dad got them. still dont know. my lil puppy who's gonna turn 7 soon. missing his hugs a lot. from the singapore flyer chili!!!!! steamboat at crystal jade macdonalds with jaime and sq! carissa xiu ying and me! primary school is missed! milk tea! one cup is missing. flyer! waiting to get in the flyer. im flying?lol. family shot!thats all for now....... my eyes hurt from sitting in front of the com all day! i should go study now. i did do physics today though. =D i dont know what to say Thursday, September 11, 2008 this was the best chemistry exam i had in a while. really hope i get an A. i need to up my gpa. not enough for berkeley! so i dont know what im feeling right now. im empty inside. all i want to do now is sit by the mountains and gaze at the clear blue sky and deep blue sea beneath it. i don t wanna face reality. all these transfer stuff is making me go nuts. i ve never been so worried before. but this is like my life. my life depends on this. help? molecular and cell bio? animal bio? microbio? too many choices? i dont know. really am afraid i ll get my bachelors and dont know what to do with it. i hate answering questions now about: what do you want to be? i say research but what kind? questions questions and more questions. who can answer them. no one cos i dont have specific questions to ask. rather i dont know what to ask. why didnt anything big and impactful happen? then i ll know what i want to do and what to write in my personal statement. why am i such a princess, with everythign i want given to me. no sufferings, no hardships, no nothing. i know some peeps would want to kill me right now for all that ive said. i don tmean that. its just that, i really havent done anything. so what if i get on the dean's list, hundreds of others did. so what if i did a hundred hours of community service? others did thousands. others have jobs, internships, and whatnot. as my stitch says on my previous wallpaper: im lost! time for bed........ thinking too much once again. i want to live my childhood again. is this not contradicting? why do they have to go overseas again and leave my dog alone? i dont get it. chemistry exam Wednesday, September 10, 2008 time to change a blogskin. something's wrong with the picture. i think. organic chem exam tomorrow. its the first time i really studied for chem. like it isnt last minute and for once i do understand what im suppose to know. but somehow, im more nervous than before. maybe because of my expectations to do well. really hope i do. i need to get more A's or i can forget about berkeley. just made my TAG thingy with uv davis today. im pretty sure im 99.999 % able to get in but now, what s troubling me is my major. i really really cant decide what to major on especially if i decide to go to davis in the end. im sure its gonna be biology but which biology. theres just sooo many subcatergories. only davis has animal biology/animal science and they have the vet school too which is for graduates. im really interested in studying animal biology over cell biology. i know i said i dont want to be a vet but there's always some other jobs that are associated with vet stuff like technicians and research. but im pretty sure my parents wont be too happy about it. they ll say choose whatever u want but they ll be thinking it isnt gonna bring in the cash. i mean who doesnt. so im really hoping i get into berkeley. berkeley doesnt offer any animal biology stuff so i ll definitely be going for molecular and cell biology. but if i dont get in (which i should seriosuly stop jinxing myself) i ll have to think bout this all over again. for now on the form, its written cell bio. i ll talk to mom tonight and see how it goes. probably change. then i ll have to talk to joyce lee my counselor to see if its possible to do that. i mean now as im typing it, i have no idea why i wrote down cell bio. im confused. i hate doing transfer associated stuff. im sure my posts these days are gonna be bout transfer stuff but i can t help it. its the only thing thats really bothering me now. :S oh yes, i ll be going to vegas in october! with our school chapter for a leadership conference. its just a weekend deal so heh. i think i m the only one who cant go into the casino too. boo. sneak me in people! and theres gonna be a costume party too. dress up as a vegas character. i dont know what to dress up as. why do they have to make us look silly. the only thing i have in my head now is pirates. so halloween is coming........... earthquake Saturday, September 06, 2008 i think i just felt an earthquake. no. i did feel an earthquake. but it was like less than 2 secs. back to watching videos for now. headache though. maybe update later. if i still feel like it. STRESSED Thursday, September 04, 2008 geez. i ve never felt so stressed and frustrated before. today wasn't a good day at all. im feeling so grumpy. definitely from the lack of sleep. so we went out for dinner yesterday at this chinese place where they serve free flow of milk tea. i had like 4 cups? usually i wont be affected by it but yesterday was horrible. finished all my stuff at around 10-11. read a lil of potter and tried to sleep. but the weather didnt help either. was sooo hot. by then it was like 12-ish. felt soo awake and so i decided to finish reading potter since there was only a couple of chapters left. did that and was still so wide awake. tossed and turned till 2am! was so tempted to skip class but didnt know which one to skip so ended up going for all of it. surprisingly i didnt fall asleep. ended class at 1.30 then went over to pacific heights for ptk meeting. and thats where i got stressed and pissed and frustrated and who knows what else. shall nto explain here just in case. maybe its just my feelings and assumptions but being a dr and from her tone, i could kinda tell. and she's still working at 9pm. was doing my chem and recieved an email from her about the csc. so now we'll do our case study on trash. i feel like trash now. haha. i dont know. just think about what to reply her tomorrow. meeting went on till 2.40ish. had physics lab at 3 till 5ish. and mind me, i have not ate anythign since morning. a tiny bowl of cereal which i forced down. that contributed to my grumpy and irritable mood. physics lab didnt help. i hate the mac. and i cantbelieve guys who act like i dont know what where everythign has to be perfect. i was like, just make the tables and let excel do the work! of course i didnt say anything. i preferred to daydream. and heres the collapse. so i got out of lab and saw that i had a missed call. it was a 738 number so i knew it had to be from school. left me a voicemail too. found out that my counseling appt was cancelled.i made that appt like 2 weeks ago?? and even before that. so i went to the student center and asked her to reschedule. she asked what it was for and i said sep. and she was like oh she's not accepting appts for general stuff only for transfer stuff. so i said i was gonna transfer and she was sep is not transfer. ( i know u have no clue what im ranting about but for my sake, i ll go on. hehe) so i asked when's the next available time slot, and shes like joyce is not havign any appts unless it transfer issues. i was like maaaaaad. so i was like never mind. think i ll just go back tomorrow and make an appt for TRANSFER with another person. boo her. have class with her on friday. maybe can ask her some stuff then too. tranferring sucks. seriously. i hate this semester. boohoo. alright its 10. time to catch up on sleep before tomorrow becomes another zombie day. im done ranting for the day. PS. I FINALLY GOT TEDDY'S ADDRESS. HOPE SHES STILL LIVING THERE. PROB WILL SEND HER A LETTER. I DONT WANNA LOSE HER. i was totally thinking about this last night when i was tossing and turning. really really dont want to lose touch. it ll be devastating. shes totally a mom to me. =)))) home from school!!! Wednesday, September 03, 2008 just got home from school and since there's no motivation to do anything, blog is the way to go! its weird how i can blog for a couple of days straight and lose that interest for a couple of weeks. okay maybe not that weird. im weird. happy. school was a waste of time today. but i finally got to see kaye. gave her the chocolate and caught up a bit while i waited for my bus. its soo hot today. summer is finally here. wouldnt say im totally enjoying it. i think i like the breeze more. (okay. i think u can ignore the rest of the post since im totally ranting/rambling/crapping...etc. what's the difference?) dont feel like eating anything now. its all leftovers in the fridge. bleah. hope we go out for dinnner tonight. if we really are, then i ll shall just starve myself. =) maybe watch an episode of en bloc and nanny daddy and find some inspiration for me to start working on my chemistry labs and anthropology reflections. boring. even the sound of it makes me wanna sleep and continue reading harry potter. i couldnt put down the book yesterday at all before i slept. even though i read it before. potter! i think its the only thing that ive truely been crazy about. other than dogs of course. anyways, en bloc isnt that good of a drama show as usual but im watching it only because its filmed in pandan valley. i totally recognized it when the first scene came on. the lift lobby. i and laurels supermarket! all that memories. i got kinda mad actuallly since they named it tampines grove. its totally not tampines. thats all the way at the other end okay. me and teddy used to go there all the time since i had english classes there when i was in kindergarten. so we'd walked through the security, through the playground which is under the block, down the steps, along the pathway where there's another playground and to laurels to get ice cream! i still remember the place so clearly. oh yes, school bus used to go there too. thats the only reason why i m watching that show. haha. i love my neighborhood. everytime i move, its still in ulu pandan. =))) and we're going to move again i think which i really resent the idea but whatever since its still in ulu pandan. really dont like sierra. i had nightmares there! and every mornign i got up for school, there's dead bees on the floor in the living room. eewwww. hope we dont moveeee. i really really liek astor green. =) okay im going on forever. tons of stuff to do. shall get started on watching videos! great idea! everyone agrees. (i think i ll skip lunch and munch on snacks instead. ) PS. IM STILL FREAKING OUT OVER PERSONAL STATEMENTS. I COULDNT SLEEP LAST NIGHT BECAUSE OF IT and partly because of potter too. HAHAHHAHAHAHA. no its not funny to be freaking out. the i dont know mood Monday, September 01, 2008 back to update after 2 weeks at school. guess im back to the usual routine now. though i did get a grumpy morning. people walking all over the house back and forth a million times. the house is like hollow. but im used to it now. good thing i have my noise reduction headphones which i can use if it does happen to irritate me a lot on extremely bad mornings. i stole it from my mom. =) okay... that was partially right. i ve been taking everything from her when i left. anyways, everything's been pretty alright with school and all. and its gonna get so busy the next few weeks. lots of meetings to go to, phi theta events, counselor meetings to settle my transfer stuff, orientations to attend for the freshmen to try and get their membership. and the case study challenge. doesnt seem that hard to do but theres lots of research to be done. have 6 copies of newspaper with me to find articles related to the honors study topic. i wont be having lots of free time on my hands now especially with 2 crazy science classes. i miss biology sadly. now i dont get off school till 6 on 2 days right smack in the middle of the week. at least i do have a 2 hour break and someone to pick me up... i think. still love tues and fridays. though i hate having pe as the first class. im whining now. good thing i have monday off since its labor day. didnt study the whole of yesterday. wasnt in the mood to. was cooped up in my room the whole afternoon watching nanny daddy. i know it hasnt started in singapore but im already at episode 13. heh heh. and i only watched the last episode of the defining moment. all thanks to mobtv's free 3 days trial which has been there for ages allowing me to create more than 10 accounts to watch my videos. =) shhh. its a secret. watched 4 hours of tv at night. blue planet is OMG. im gonna buy my own dvd set next time even though we do have a set at home. but i want one for me. its just absolutely amazing. i was thinking on writing something about it in my personal statement. more stuff to worry about. PERSONAL STATEMENTS! i have nothing to write about as of now. lets see, tutoring, being a vp of service officer, thats it? im so screwed. save me. back to tv before i start freaking out again. watched the episode on the deep. its ______ no words to describe. pitch black with weird monstorous creatures. i wanna go explore. people know less than 1% about it. they mentioned we know more about the surface on the moon than the abyssal layer. imagine.. getting carried away now but go watch the whole series if u havent. even if u hate animals, i guarantee you ll still be amazed. i could watch it over and over. after that watched its me or the dog. great show for doggy people. i cant believe how some owners treat their dogs. fasion accessories, babies.. and eventually they turn into monsters that snap and bark and drool and pull u like crazy. i was thinking hey my dog isnt that bad after all. i mean he does bite but thats only if u touch him. and he does bark at dogs and starts going crazy but thats only for a while. besides that, he's really a normal golden. back to the show again. this dog trainer victoria stilwell is like wow. she changes the dog's behavior in such a short period of time. training dogs does sound liek fun now. watched killer jellyfish while waiting for its me or the dog show to start. irukandji jellyfish is tiny but its sting/ venom causes severe pain. somehow i just turned into a tv show reporter. whatever. the shows were kinda cool anyways. went back to my room after. read harry potter (yes im re-reading the last book again. i thought the half blood prince was going to be shown in nov this year but it got pushed back but yeah i read the HBP again so when i finished i could nt help but read deathly hallows too) went to bed after at around 11.30. talked to mom and dad before that too. they were at the IT show AGAIN. i dont know how many times theyve been there. but dady said he was gonna get me an external drive. they spoil me too much. but i think thats fair enough. hah. they spoil themselves too. we're now proud owners of tons of phones. no seriously. we ve been trading in our old phones and got n81, 6800?, and many others. but thats not it. theyre now proud owners of 2 new iphones. its been out for ages here in the states but i suppose it just got launched there. so my mom took her vouchers and got 2 iphones one for each of them. more phones at home now. i told them to give my dog a phone. =) thats about it for yesterday? wasnt gonna do much today too. probably get some homework and revision done. i get motivated for 10 secs and there it goes flyign out the window. im still stressed over the fact that i really badly want to get into berkeley. i dont know how i ll feel if i dont get accepted. i know for sure i can get into davis. gonna sign my tag agreement in 2 weeks on the 9th. but its far and i dont know if i want mom and dad to fork out so much money again since i ll have to move there. cant possibly drive everyday. i shall stop going on bout that or im sure i ll start to freak out again. everyone's freaking out over personal statements already. i heard from people that some have written over 10 drafts before they got a satisfied personal statement. alright i said i ll stop. do u guys have to write ur own personal statements for uni??? i'm still trying to find time to blog and upload pictures here about my trip back. 3 weeks, 4 countries. unbelievable. i think i did a draft on the first day but stopped halfway for i dont know what reason. alright i shall find some motivation to study now. still have to purchase my access code for physics. it expires in 3 days for the free trial. bleah. so much to doooooo... i know this semester is gonna be crazy. i actually didnt paragraph this at all but i thought it would be insane so now its paragraphed. random pictureeees:) stitch! his head is actually a puzzle. super duper cute. got it in hk. was kinda expensive for a puzzle or else i would have gotton lots more. size ur your hand if u lay it flat. have a winnie the pooh one too but it doesnt have a body since it wasnt really a head like this. love it!  back view of his head. he can turn his head 360 degrees! okay duhhh. i think i l go get one from hk everytime i go there. =) my baby biscuit! haha. its all gone now. so random. there, their two iphones. so blurry though. my lil doggy who looks stunned and dumb. hahahhahahaha. im so mean to him. i really do miss his lil hugs now. he's turning 7 soon too. i dont want him to get old. i get scared everytime i start thinking about how many more times i get to see him.  lazy to upload more photos now. off to TRY and study.
|
About a girl
when i put on a show.  nine-teen 100790 ilovepupsndogs @hotmail.com dogs! -i wish upon the star- more dogs=) hamsters cats a sack of gummy bears get into UC Berkeley travel around the world Bark
cause i cannot hear you. Cbox
Music & lyrics
find a way back into love. falling in love. jaime marlene huihui junhao kelly jervenne huiping crystal felicia diana
Layouts & credits
my thanks. Editor: shanggg!rong Basecodes: 1, 2, 3 Photobucket & DaFont
|
