Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind.

hilarious

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

this just totally made my day. no actually night (or partly). so i was talking to my mom online and this was why she called me in a hurry yesterday night. i actually ignored the call cos i was half asleep.

so the other day we were at bugis looking for my shirt, we saw this shop selling this bread thingy that looked real. it was popular in hk and my cousin liked it too so we contem,plated on buying it but though it was stupid so dropped the idea. so yesterday, my mom took the plastic bag on the dining room table thinking it was real since the bag was from a bakery too and she didnt really look at it. and when she took it out to eat in her office only did she realize my dad tricked her. i wonder where he got that bread from. probably his colleages. i was laughing so hard. hilarious i tell you. my innocent mom has been tricked by my cunning dad.


you just did it again. so i was supposed to babysit the kids tomorrow after school and she picked up the call just now. she was like JESSICA?! ask me lah. i off tomorrow. it sounded almost as though i was nmot fit to babysit. i was looking forward to it too. plus i have yet to see their newly renovated house. but u know what. whatever. i dont care. i'll stay and lie in bed again. less stuff to do. and stop handing me your hand me downs! geez. she just passed me a pair of jeans from old navy that no one can fit into. like duhh. it was freaking small. i could barely fit into it and before i said if i wanted it, she was like ood can wear to school. like wth... doubt i would.


i should just carry on laughing.


still as homesick as ever


i just want to go to bed right now though its not even 6.30pm. still as homesick as ever and nothing is helping. first day of school was a bore. weird feeling i never had for the past two full semesters. i swear i had the motivation in class to just study once i get home but half an hour after i got home, i just wanted to sleep again. so i laid on the bed but my eyes remained open. afraid that the phone might ring any minute and there was soemthing for me to do. and sure it did. asked to turn off the computer. then, there wasnt any point in sleeping anymore. got up and built my chemistry model. basically it was copied from a software he asked us to download. im still in no mood to blog about my trip.


you dont have to brag about how he brought u cupcakes that cost 3 bucks from new york. no wonder i knew i didnt want to eat it in the first place. no wonder i always felt closer to ur sis. u should totally stop bragging. thats right. go back downstairs.


maybe im just depressed. maybe its the lack of sleep from jetlag. (still waking up at 6am without fail). maybe its just the feeling of wanting to be with my parents again. or maybe its just me. i need to get over this period of time. i cant wait till the end of the year when dad comes for his meetings. then i ll get to see them again.

dinner sucked again. i had plain hor fun with pepper and tasteless soup. it left a horrible aftertaste. i need to wash my mouth with water. if only mom and dad were here, id be indulging in sumptuous buffets and chilli crabs. am i even asking too much?

perhaps i should never have gone home....








homesick

Monday, August 18, 2008

im pissed off again and being homesick is not helping. i'm seriously like being interrogated. every single time they come to play mj, i just want to hide myself in my tiny little room under the sheets and go into my own little imaginary world. just leave me alone people! and i feel bad every single time i ignore them, not neccessarily on purpose but rather cos i didnt hear what they said clearly. and i feel like im hogging up the bathroom when they're around if i shower. cause they're apparently "guests" who come every weekend. whenever i walk past holding a towel and they see me, they'll be like u going to shower?. duhh. its 8 and who cares if i shower or not, like its ur business. and i come out and u say, ur text message cannot send overseas. ur brother just send $200 worth of messages and ur good lil sister had to rub in. let father pay lah. u know what. keeping ur mouth shut wont hurt. u had no idea how pissed i was. and then, she came in and asked if i wrote a check which i did so yesterday.passed it to her and she was like, so much ar? STOP PRETENDING YOU LITTLE BRAT! spend too much, u complain say how we using too much of ur money. give you money, u also complain. seriously, mind ur own business. and i had the worst food today ever. moldy pizza which i kinda had suspicions about before putting it into my mouth and vegetarian dinner with rice u cant even chew because they were rock hard. i only scooped food the size of my palm knowing i wouldnt eat it but still threw the last bit away. like do u even care about us. duhh. no. ur precious lil daughters are out and ur lil son is out partying. so who bothers. u continue playing ur mj and life goes on as usual. i just want to go home so badly now. maybe this is the effects of going home for 3 weeks. i know it cos this has definitely happened before but i never felt so angry and sad before. im going off to bed then to school tomorrow. i miss mom and dad......


best trip ever

Saturday, August 16, 2008
i'm back in the states and everything just feels weird somehow. i'm missing everything. the past 3 weeks have been awesome and nothing has ever been the same. i want my mom and dad. dont feel like typing now... update on the trip with pictures another time soon.